[sweetgirl51305]

So on Sunday dh and I basically got in a huge argument about this whole ttc ordeal. He wants a kid and doesn't care if we adopt or ttc again. I explained to him that financially we can't adopt right now, but I didn't feel ready to ttc again. I'm enjoying working out and I want to go back to school, and I have a tanning membership that will go wasted if I'm pg. Oh and the main thing, I'm scared. I don't want to lose another baby and I'm just not into the ttc process anymore. He keeps saying that we don't know until we try again. So after a full day of fighting and ignoring each other we've finally come to a decision...

We're going to try again, this month. I reset my cbefm and went and got more test sticks for it today. I'm actually getting more into it now. However, I'm still scared to death. I can still workout and go to school while I'm pg and I'll just continue to pay for tanning even tho I won't be using it if I get pg. He also said he'll be there more for me this time, like dr appts and everything 'cuz I told him I felt like I went thru the whole process of finding out I was pg and m/c by myself last time. And I've actually been thinking about it, and I don't know if I want to tell family and friends that we're trying again. And when I get pg idk if I'll tell ppl right away. Just 'cuz it killed me last time I m/c when it made my mom and sis-in-law cry. I know it upsetted dh too. Lord, idk. I guess we'll cross that bridge when we get there. LOL. But, I just wanted to let u guys know what's up with me. I'm supposed to ovulate on July 7th (I swear it's ALWAYS on a wednesday lol!). I'm still taking my thyroid medicine and I'm going to start taking my prenatals my dr perscribed me last time I was pg tonight. So we'll see! Sorry so long!

[happymommy2010]

good luck! hopefully you get your bfp and a sticky lil bean soon! kup!

[Brittanie]

I'm glad you two finally got the issues aired and out where they needed to be. It's hard not to be on the same page.

Here's loads of ultra sticky for you!!

[tobi4]

Good luck Lyndsay! I wish you the best of luck that everything works out perfectly for you and DH!!

[Celena]

YAY Lindsay I'm glad to hear it!

There's no way to ever get over that fear honestly, it's always going to be there until the day you deliver. However, with your DH being more commited to being there for you it will help. He will connect and get a bond earlier and understand what's going on if he's more involved, then he can feel like he's a part of it all as well. Hang in there and I really hope that you can enjoy TTCAL again

I know with our first 2 losses I was completely by myself as well thru the whole thing... the 3rd is when he was there and saw thru ton of u/s's inside of me, heard first hand from the doctor's what was going on and everything. He really felt horrible how he treated me thru the first two and I tell you what I still am not over those little ones... never will be, but they're trying to come back. So here we are and he's so much more supportive, it makes all the difference in the world.

[ohnicole]

I'm glad you came to a decision. TTCAL is a scary road, I just try to think what I'm fighting for. I hope you guys get a sticky BFP soon!

[sweetgirl51305]

Thanks guys! I hope we get a sticky bean too. I really didn't have trouble getting pg it was just STAYING pg! Hopefully it'll work the 1st try and it'll stick! And I've done good not telling anyone (well, besides you guys!). I plan on not telling people that we're trying and if we get pg we'll go from there. But I'm telling you guys, there's gotta be something in the water 'cuz EVERYONE is pg! There's 4 ppl (that I know of) just at my work. And more ppl trying. And I work at a daycare, and they're pretty much all 9-12 wks along. So there's gonna be a lot of ppl out on maternity leave at once! lol! Anyways! Thanks guys for listening to me and helping me with my decision! I'll kup!!

[.:Shortcake:.]

Good luck! I hope you get your BFP quickly

[BeccaM]

Good luck Lindsay. I hope your get your sticky bean soon!!

[Kary♥RN]

HUGS HUGS HUGS.... The fear dosen't get any easier.... but for me.. three loses.. made me even more determined to have a baby in my arms. The want and desire out weighs the fear.. HUGS