Lost another baby today

MeganMomof5 · #1 August 3rd, 2010, 01:11 PM

I just lost my 3rd baby in 9 1/2 months about an hour ago...It all started last night with my cramping...It got much worse as the day went on...I felt like I was in labor, it was horrible and I just wanted to die..I would of much rather had another D&C than have to go through that again...It got so intense, I went to the bathroom and pushed a little (from all the pressure I was feeling) and the baby came out...It's still inside it's water sack, and i'm not sure what to do with it...I just don't feel right flushing it...I don't know why this happened again....I just feel like any bit of spirit I had left was just crushed, and I have nothing left...I don't know if i'll ttc again or if I should just give up...I was home alone with my kids when it happened, but they just left, so at least i'll have the day to myself.

ohnicole · #2 August 3rd, 2010, 01:16 PM

I am so sorry, Megan

What a horrible year you have had. Huge hugs.

Would you possibly get any answers or closure by taking the baby in to the doctor for testing? Or you could have a little funeral ceremony and bury the baby. I hope you find an idea that will give you some peace.

Brittanie · #3 August 3rd, 2010, 01:24 PM

I was going to suggest a little memorial and burial too.

I'm so sorry honey. This was not the news I wanted to hear, and now I'm going to cry.

I wish I could hug you in real life.

~InHisHands~ · #4 August 3rd, 2010, 01:33 PM

MeganMomof5 · #5 August 3rd, 2010, 01:37 PM

Maybe I shouldn't of done this, but I just opened the baby's sack

It was perfectly formed for 9 weeks, it had eyes and arm and leg buds...I'm pretty sure that it was the blood clot that caused the miscarriage because everything else looks perfect...I just don't know what to do right now.

Kary♥RN · #6 August 3rd, 2010, 01:42 PM

HUGS... I am so sorry. I would call the Dr (if you want tests run) And see if he will run tests.. Even though the baby looks to be developed.. It could still be a chromosomal issue. I can't even imagine what you are going through.. HUGS

MeganMomof5 · #7 August 3rd, 2010, 01:46 PM

I have a feeling it was the blood clot that probably caused my miscarriage, so i'm not even sure if they would do any testing...I'm waiting for a call back to see if they want me to come in today or just keep my appointment tomorrow...i'm sure there isn't much they can do....I feel so drained emotionally and physically...it was way harder than having a D&C...I'm sore all over and I feel sick...I just don't knowwhat to do with myself now

Momo · #8 August 3rd, 2010, 01:51 PM

Oh no, no no no. This is not what I wanted to see. I am so so sorry for your loss.

Huge hugs. Just know we are crying along side you.

Lots of love and prayers.

SkyBaby · #9 August 3rd, 2010, 02:31 PM

Oh sweetie.... *HUGE hugs* Yes, I'm gonna suggest a burial service, too.. You're in my prayers.. indeed, we're crying along with you.. We all love you. You do what feels right for you as far as burial or tests. *hugs*

luvmykids623 · #10 August 3rd, 2010, 02:39 PM

I'm sooo sooo sorry Megan! I wish I could give you a great big hug!

Halfbaked · #11 August 3rd, 2010, 02:57 PM

My heart is breaking for you. I'm so sorry.

MeganMomof5 · #12 August 3rd, 2010, 03:10 PM

I talked to the nurse and they said I can have testing done if I want, but they said insurance might not pay for it...They paid for pathology for my other 2 losses, so wouldn't they this time? I'm bringing it in with him tomorrow when I go in...I'm still just numb

Ashmommyof3.5 · #13 August 3rd, 2010, 03:19 PM

I am so so so Sorry!! My heart goes out to you!! (((HUGS)))

markswife · #14 August 3rd, 2010, 03:48 PM

I'm so sorry to hear this. My heart goes out to you and your family. I'll keep you in my prayers.

dreamer10 · #15 August 3rd, 2010, 04:23 PM

Oh Megan....I am so so sorry. Please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers. Please hang in there and know that I am thinking of you.

BeccaM · #16 August 3rd, 2010, 05:02 PM

Oh Megan I am so sorry... My heart is just breaking for you. I was sure this was your sticky bean.. I will be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. BIG HUGZ!!

BrandiJeane · #17 August 3rd, 2010, 06:00 PM

Megan - Im so sorry.. I dont know what to say right now.. I have followed you from when I was in the Sept DDC.. I just wish I could give you a huge hug right now.. I just am so angered right now.. How is this fair for you, for any of us......... I really hope some testing can be done if not I hope you are able to give your baby the memorial/burial you both deserve! :hugs:

~LaurenNoel~ · #18 August 3rd, 2010, 06:10 PM

Oh, sweetie. My heart just dropped when I saw the title of your post. I will be praying for you.

ldovey83 · #19 August 3rd, 2010, 06:24 PM

Oh Megan.... I am so so sorry for you hun.. My heart sank when I saw this.. It is not fair by any means.. I will be saying a prayer for you.. I know it isn't easy.. I do hope that the Dr can give you some sort of answers tomorrow.. HUGS!! WE are all here for you hun..

sweetgirl51305 · #20 August 3rd, 2010, 06:39 PM

I'm so sorry! I've been following your posts in the ddc. I hated this happened to you. I think you should get testing done on it. I understand how you felt the need to look at it. When I passed mine, I had the same feeling like I had to push and it came out just how you described. I couldn't bare to flush the toilet either, I had to make dh do it. And then I cried myself to sleep for nights afterwards because I regretted not taking it out and looking at it. I don't know why. I hope you get some answers though. Please keep us updated. Again, I'm so very sorry.