[stargatemommy]

Well yesterday by boobs started hurting WAY less... Today my test is the same as yesterday, maybe a tad darker, but I can't tell.... I think it's going to be over soon... It will be a few days because I haven't started spotting yet, but I know it's coming. I've done this enough to know. I wonder if I should stop taking the prometrium and just get it over with faster...

This is just so unfair. I want to scream, and throw a huge tantrum, like a toddler. I want to hate my husband for having bad chromosomes and doing this to me (I don't hate him though) I even went as far as to pray for this pregnancy, and if I really believed in God, I would be pissed at him.

I think we are going to move on to donor sperm now. I am not doing this anymore, something has to change.

UPDATE: Man I really don't know what is going on now... My boobs are sore, I just took a a 3 hour nap, and when I woke up they were killing me again. I don't know. I REALLY wish the doctors would run betas, but they refuse! I ran out of pregnancy tests now. I want to test tomorrow to see what happens... I was hoping that today's would be so dark that it would suck the dye out of the control line... We can't get anymore tests until Monday, when DH gets paid...

[~Lynda~]

i really really pray you are wrong!!! big big hugs to you and I will pray for you and your baby!!!

[luvmykids623]

I know you know your body, but I'm praying that your wrong this time! The line on the second test looks a little darker than the one above it. I'm still praying that this is your sticky bean!!

[markswife]

I don't think there is a big difference between the lines. Is there any way you can get some betas drawn so you know for sure what is going on? Don't give up hope yet.

[~LaurenNoel~]

I get different lines depending on the time of day and how much I drank. I hope you are wrong too. *hugs*

[Kary♥RN]

HUGS... I know how scary this can be. The test looks darker.. You will have days when your symptoms seem a lot less.... Try to stay positive.. I would not stop the progesterone until you see your Dr.. and have at least two betas to make sure either A... they are going up... or B.. your worst fears are confirmed.

And just to let you know... With this pregnancy... my second test was almost blank.. compared to the day before... While YES I will be the first person to say I guage my pregnancy on how dark the tests.. are getting... I would have swore this pregnancy was over.. I think my tests are on the main page.. you can see that on 11DPO... You can bearly see the line.

[MeganMomof5]

I just wanted to let you know that when I was taking FRER every day, it took them awhile for the test line to get super dark, and I actually think your lines look really good...Also its very normal for your symptoms to vary from day to day...Don't give up hope yet!!!

[Kary♥RN]

Here are the pics.. from this pregnancy... (and this is a twin) These are that same, tests.. one with the flash.. one with out.. You can see how light mine were.. and the how light the second test was..

[KDD]

Try not to give up hope yet. My daily ICs stopped getting darker by about the 3rd day of testing. What really helped me was taking the digital tests with the conception indicator.

1st Test:


1 week later:


I did take a 3rd a week later (but don't have a photo in Photobucket) and the numbers increased again.

[RinkMom]

I really hope everything is okay. It is a good sign your symptoms have returned.

[Halfbaked]

Don't give up yet. With more than one of my pregnancies, I had NO symptoms. My lines never got really dark either. They just all looked the same. Just remember, it's not over until the witch sings. Good luck!

[luvmykids623]

I'm glad your symptoms are back! I keep going back and forth between feeling positive and defeated. I don't have nearly as many symptoms this time around as I did with my previous 4 pregnancies and they seem to come and go, I keep getting twinges in my cervix (that have never been a good thing in the past), and my lines on tests are varying depending on what time I take them and the brand that I use, and I've taken an obscene amount of tests. I really hope that both of us wind up with sticky beans!!

[msshamis23]

Stick in there hon! Don't give up yet! Even though after what you've been through, it's really hard to just keep believing.

I remember when I first got pregnant with my daughter, I took like seven to ten tests for the first week or so after I thought I might be (No idea how many DPO I was at, nor did I know anything about pregnancy tests. I did not know that even a faint line was a positive) But all of the tests I took had the same faint line. Never got darker, nor clearer. It wasn't until I actually went to the doc to get tested that I believed I was pregnant. Just because of that faint line. But I was about six to nine weeks pregnant, so there should of definitely been a darker line, but there wasn't.

*big big big hugs* Keep us updated!

Stick bean stick!

[MamaRN]

I hope you are wrong, too. That second test looks darker to me. When I had my second PG my tests too awhile to get darker, and I had a few after the first that weren't as dark and I freaked. My first PG I also lost my symptoms and freaked and called my OB, and they checked a beta and it was fine and I had a healthy baby girl 9 months later. I really really hope this is it for you. ((BIG HUGS))

ps- here's my tests from PG # 2, you can see 5/6 looks lighter than 5/5. Hope that helps! ( I did lose that pregnancy but it was because I had a subchorionic hemorrhage and placental abruption because of that, the baby looked great and was growing well with a strong heartbeat right up until the bleed ripped the placenta off- my point being it wasn't anything wrong with the baby it was the bleed that caused the m/c.)

[zkat]

I wanted to stop by and tell you, my symptoms came and went all during the first trimester. It was maddening.

I took my only test at 14 dpo, so 4weeks 0 days, only because AF was 2 days late and if I was pregnant, I had to start Lovenox right away. I told DH the day before that I wasn't pregnant because I didn't feel pregnant. I continued to not feel pregnant until 6 weeks and then it would really come and go. I did not stop worrying until 16 weeks when I had my anatomy scan.

I really hope this is your miracle baby. I know it can happen - my bff was told her husband had a sperm issue and that she had a less than 1% chance of every carrying to term. Her less than 1% chance is a very happy, healthy 2.5 year old.

Kat.

[stargatemommy]

Thank you ladies! I appreciate all your support. I am actually feeling much more positive now. My boobs a killing me again, and I haven't had any bleeding. I have had a little cramping, but it is a dull achy feeling more than a cramp...

I still can't test again until Monday, but maybe the day off will be good. Hopefully my test on Monday will be super super dark!

[Celena]

Erica,

Symptoms come and go thru the first 2, 3 weeks... intermittant boobs hurting, nausea and so on. Don't give up hope yet and yes your tests look darker. Altho I have to throw this out there, sometimes they're from different batches and so they don't always necesarily get darker than another the way we'd like them to. They're not an indicator of hcg doubling ya know, just that it can detect hcg in your urine... blah blah, you know what I'm saying tho right?

Hang in there honey praying for ya!

[Momo]

Yay for sore boobs! I really hope this is your sticky bean. Hugs! And the dull achy cramps are great, that means little one is digging in deep and your uterus is starting to stretch. I'm praying for you!

[ldovey83]

Erica hun.. Hang in there.. I know it isn't easy and being pregnant after losses is a rough road.. Your tests look great.. Hang inthere and don't give up hope yet..Stay positive..