[Fallen2Love]

Is it always so difficult to take a test after a loss?

We kinda TTC this past cycle. We missed prime baby making time b/c we were on vacation w/ family. But we were still hopeful that maybe, just maybe we still had some chance. But AF has been going strong most of Friday and today. So, we are out for the count. I was so scared, worried, etc to test. The whole "i want it to be a BFP, but I don't want it to be a BFP then loss it, but at the same time I really can't bear to see a BFN and just remind me of the fact that I was pg and no longer am, etc, etc". Does that "fear" or whatever ever get easier?

W/ DD (I had a loss in August, and got PG w/ her in October) I don't remember ever thinking twice about m/c when I took a test. Then again, I was almost 2 weeks late (and didn't even realize it until hubby asked me when the last time I had my period - I've always been irregualar, but getting better in the last year). I also had enough symptoms to share with everyone and still have enough for myself left over (lets just say the toilet and I became best friends during those 9 months). I really *really* hope that testing and the thought process of becoming pregnant get easier as time goes on. I thought that perhaps we might be ready to TTC, but I don't think I am as much as I want to. I was crying in the bathroom when I got home the day AF started, just one more "reminder" sorta - and its not even something that woulda, coulda, shoulda - just a fact of life. Maybe TTC is always this emotional of a roller coaster without loss. But IDK. Please someone cue me in - am at least somewhat normal or just totally crazy!

[~InHisHands~]

These are def normal emotions. I have no advice though. The only thing I can say is that it gets easier with time though bad days always creep up when you least expect them.

[Halfbaked]

I know when I have ttc, I've been more anxious testing. The times I wasn't trying, I didn't worry about testing or even mc. I had a chemical mc but even then I wasn't worried about testing or about a mc. Now that I've had a mc and we are ttc, I'm anxious about testing negative or if not neg, then about another mc.
I hope the anxiety goes away. I'm sure it will get easier with time.

[msshamis23]

I agree. The testing is horrible. Though the 2WW is almost even more unbearable. I'm still early after my loss, and so I don't really have any advice to offer about it getting easier, but what i've been doing is trying to relax. It's hard, I know--but if I can get myself off of worrying for even five minutes it's worth it.

*big hugs*

Feel free to PM me if ya need to to talk.