[hubshope]

Yesterday was the one year anniversary of our miscarriage and I'm in a FOUL mood. I was in the TWW and AF showed up on MOnday which didn't help matters.

I know I wasn't that far along...so I feel bad feeling so bad about it. Some women make it so much further into their pregnancies, know the gender, feel kicks...and some, God I don't know how they survive, deliver little angels. But I still can't help but feel sad, even though I'm Blessed with two beautiful boys and was fortunate in that at least I wasn't that far into my pregnancy.

I just needed to share with someone that it was the year mark. I know i hardly ever post over on this board anymore...but I knew you ladies would understand.

And yes, another cycle again. I will be ovulating this means around the 24th of this month...back to the drawing board. And I thought we'd really timed things well this last fertile window. Just discouraged and down.

I hope most of you don't know who I am...that would mean the ladies who were here a few months back are all soon to be Mommies. And Kary, I hope your pregnancy is going well. I have kept you and those little blessings in my prayers.

Thank you, Ladies. Hugs to you all.

[Halfbaked]

I'm so sorry sweetie. It doesn't matter how far along you were. As soon as we see that positive line, there is a connection and when it's broken, it hurts. It doesn't mean you love your other children any less, it just means you love the one you lost just as much.
We are all here for you anytime you need us.

[Pitridge]

Originally Posted by Halfbaked

I'm so sorry sweetie. It doesn't matter how far along you were. As soon as we see that positive line, there is a connection and when it's broken, it hurts. It doesn't mean you love your other children any less, it just means you love the one you lost just as much.
We are all here for you anytime you need us.

[Brittanie]

Being one of those women that you mention, I have to agree with the other ladies. My loss is not worse or more. It's different yes. But not more. You had your future stolen from you as much as I did.



I'm sorry that AF showed.

[~LaurenNoel~]

I lost our little one at 7wk, 4 days. I have never been so heartbroken. Sorry about AF. *hugs*

[~InHisHands~]

[JessP]

Your loss is still a loss and it doesn't mean you shouldn't be sad. Cry all you need to. Just because you have children doesn't mean you loved that child any less or miss them any less. I hope you are doing better. We are always here for ladies when they need it.

[Banned-Pumpkintime]

Im sorry sweetie.

[Momo]

Hugs. I'm so sorry. I really hope you get your bfp this cycle. I struggle with the same feelings. I was only 5 weeks 3 days and I sometimes feel guilty for feeling so heartbroken when I think about the pain others have gone through or are going through. But it still doesn't change the fact that my heart is broken. Just know your feelings are shared.

[ohnicole]

Huge hugs. I'm so sorry.

[hubshope]

Thank you, Ladies. For the hugs, the encouragement, for validating how I feel and for being so kind.

I think August is just doomed to be a bad month for me...since the m/c last year, and now my oldest starting school. I'm a wreck over sending him (he starts on Wed)...I wish I could keep him home with me.

I'm trying to focus on more positive things today though...that at least the year mark is behind me, at least I have a little angel looking over my family waiting for us all to join him/her someday, I conceived my second born in August...
You know, little reminders to help me not focus on the sad stuff.

Thank you for letting me come here to vent. I just needed someone to vent to that would understand. My family/friends don't get why I got upset to begin with and especially don't understand why I get upset a year later. They think I should be happy with my two boys and not feel saddness for the baby I lost or saddness over every month another BFN.

Thank you all.

[tobi4]

I agree with what the ladies have already said. ~~hugs~~ Unless the people in your life have been through it, its hard for them to understand. Im glad you have us to come to. I know I wouldnt have had anywhere that offers as much support as JM.