[mommy jenn]

hi ladies

after my mc i wasnt upset about the miscarriage. i have been more obsessed with getting pregnant! i am on clomid again this cycle and i dont like the clomid not just because of the side effects but because it can lead to ovarian cancer later in life. i know know i would do anything to have a baby and i am so hoping i get pregnant this month.
i am trying so hard to kinda "play things down" and not get myself to excited about getting pregnant.

do i sound mad???

i just need reasurance i guess..

[Momo]

You aren't mad at all. I know I will be the same way once af finally shows and I can start trying. Like, i want to be pregnant desperately. But I don't. But I do but I don't want to be let down again. It's complicated.

[mommy jenn]

sorry for your loss.

i dont like to linger on what has happened. i just obsess about planning and getting pg. its a pain the but actually because its like a mission that i have to complete. i have always been one of those "if i want it, i want it NOW!"

i have learnt to accept that things happen in His time... but its still frustrating. lol

[Pitridge]

Totally understand and no, you are not mad.
I try very hard not to get too excited about being pg this month because I don't want to get disappointed, but I can't help it either.

[~InHisHands~]

Not mad at all!

[Im.Nayomi]

the emotional side of what you are going through....
is totally what I have been feeling lately( I m/c
this past May) its not a true statement but I tell myself
that I can totally be much happier if I get pregnant
again right away....but I need to be happy right now
no matter what & be patient about when God wants
to send me another little angel. Thanks for writing
your feelings down.