I lost my precious little child. It has been the longest month of my life. I just miss my little baby so much. I wish I could hold her and kiss her and tell her that I love her.

And then I almost feel guilty over my grief because I lost my baby so early. And then I feel guilty because most days things are nearly normal. I've been pretty emotional lately and had a good cry last night. It doesn't help that I am in so much pain from my cramps. Just a hard day. And my inlaws are over so I can't grieve in the open. I have to go on like things are normal. But they aren't.