[MeganMomof5]

So my new doctor called me back...She said she had some good news and bad news...She said the good news is that my blood count is doing well, which is a good sign..The bad news is that something abnormal is still going on in my uterus, which we already knew...They aren't exactly sure what it is now...She said it could of been part of the placenta grew through my uterus, but they don't know, or it could be the artery's...She said my 2 options are to watch and wait...Monitor me with blood counts and keep a close eye on things for the next few weeks, or go in and have surgery...If we go with the surgery route there's a high chance that they have to cauterize the artery's in my uterus, and I won't be able to have another baby because of scar tissue...She said it could be life threatening for me to have another pregnancy...She is willing to let me go another 3 weeks or so bleeding before she would want to do a surgery, as long as my bleeding doesn't get out of hand...I'm just feeling so hopeless right now...I have a feeling that this will be it for me ...She told me that this could be life threatening and I won't have a choice, but at the same time I feel like the rest of my life I'll be miserable if I get my chance for another baby taken away from me...This just isn't fair ...I have an appointment with her next week and they'll check my blood and maybe send me for an MRI depending on what's going on and depending on my bleeding.

[ohnicole]

Megan, I'm sorry that the situation seems to not be getting any better. So is your plan to wait the 3 weeks, hope the bleeding stops, and only do the surgery if absolutely necessary?

It's totally understandable if you are feeling sad and freaking out. I would do the same in your shoes- even if it's not really justified yet, our hearts will feel what our hearts will feel. If you need to be depressed, be depressed. If you need to be in denial, be in denial. If you need to stay super busy, stay super busy.

I will be thinking of you and keeping my fingers crossed that your bleeding stops, and you get the chance to have your rainbow baby. Huge hugs, honey.

[KAB]

Megan, I'm so sorry about your bad news, I can't imagine all the emotions you must be feeling right now. I'll keep you in my prayers, I know your decisons will be well thought out and I hope that this will be taken care of in a way that will allow you to have another baby in the future.

[MeganMomof5]

I forgot to mention that she told me a few times to prepare myself for the possibility that I won't have another baby

I don't think I can

[eChristine]

I am so sorry to hear :[ I hope everything works out and is okay.
my thoughts and prayers are with you<3

[Celena]

No Megan that doesn't sound fair at all... but does sxplain all the bleeding, your body is really trying to get rid of it on it's own and perhaps it WILL. She's at least willing to see if it'll resolve on it's own as well as taking a closer look into it to make sure of what's going on. So that is good as well Megan.

I'm praying this isn't it for you honey, it's terrifying to think about when you're wanting an addition to your family that you feel is out there. Also makes us feel less of a woman when something isn't right with our fertility, female bits and our possibility of a baby. COupled with all the bleeding and recently having a loss. I'm sure the hormones, anemia, it's all very wearing on your emotional and physical well being. Keep taking your prenatals, add some extra vitamin C to boost your immunities as well take the iron at the opposite time of day as your other vitamins because calcium and iron couteract each other...

GIGANTIC honey, I'm so sad that you're so sad

[TTCin2010]

I am so sorry for all that you are going through. I would get a second and third opinion. If you do end up needing surgery go with a reproductive surgeon, not an OB. I've posted my story before..My OB said I would loose both ovaries because of me endo. I got a second opinion from a reproductive surgeon, he was able to save both of my ovaries, because of his skill in the reproductive filed.

Good luck

[Momo]

Oh honey. Not what you wanted to hear at all. But I will say doctors ALWAYS talk about the worst that could happen. ALWAYS. It's like they get paid to be pessimistic. I was told I'd never have kids due to endo, I was told I could die during my first pregnancy due to placenta previa, I've been told a lot of dire news from ob's.
But the truth is we have a God who is the great physician. I will petition him on your behalf. It's ok to be freaked out though. I know I would be in your shoes. Take it easy the next couple of weeks. Really focus on resting and getting your vitamins and such. God is in control. And I agree with Karen. Don't be afraid to get opinions from reproductive specialists. They know their stuff.
Wait, where are you again? Aren't you near Seattle?

[MeganMomof5]

Thanks everyone...I started to bleed really bad about an hour ago ...I sat on the toilet and it was just pouring out, and baseball sized clots...I put on an always pad, the one that holds 4x as much and filled it up from front to back in less than 10 minutes...I called the after hours and the on call doctor called me back (He was actually on my list of doctors I wanted to see)...He said that he already knew about me and looked my ultrasounds today...He said that he didn't want me to go into the hospital, since my blood count is still really good, i'd have to bleed alot more for it to become life threatening...He said that since there is no clear cut way to treat me right now, and since I want to go on to have more babies that he recomends I just let it go to see if it will heal, and he said it very well could...He said he thinks it's its just one artery in my uterus...He said it might take awhile, but it can happen...It's slowed down for right now, it's not pouring out, but it won't surprise me if it does again...I started to hemorrhage like 3 weeks 1 or 2 days after my miscarriage in April, and i'm now at 3 weeks 2 days since my last miscarriage...He said that he thinks my doctor was going to call me tomorrow any way, but he wants me to call and let her know about my bleeding...I really thought I was going to end up in the hosptial tonight...He told me if I start feeling light headed and ill to go in...I still very much remember how I felt last time, so I think i'll know when it's time to go to the hospital...He wants me to drink water and rest.

Oh and Momo, I'm not in seattle, i'm in Bellingham, which is close to 2 hours north...We have no specialists here in Bellingham and i'd have to travel down to seattle...I'm not sure if i'd be able to, maybe if it comes to that, but it's nothing I can do for appointments etc...Our city isn't small, i'm not sure why we never have any specialists here,but we just don't

[Momo]

Aw, too bad you're up there. There are some great docs at Swedish. I think you need to almost consider yourself on bedrest. I know after you have a baby you are much more likely to bleed a lot if you overdo it. You've basically just given birth and your uterus has had a lot of trauma the past year. Put your feet up, let your family take care of you, and allow your body a rest. Rest may help the artery to heal up. Hugs.

[Celena]

I'm glad to hear that the doctor you like was on call and was allot more optimisic than the other lady dr. Megan

I had bleeding like that, swore I was going to pass out and end up in the hospital without knowing it too. Hope that's a sign it's trying to heal.

[Kary♥RN]

HUGS... I am so sorry that the news wasn't the best. Hopefully everything will look better in a few weeks.. HUGS

[MeganMomof5]

thanks guys, i'm having a hard time thinking positive...I haven't been positive this whole time, i've known all along that this was going to happen, and I still think i'm going to hemorrhage just like last time...The bleeding slowed down, but now it's picked up again ...I'm going to take a shower and then lay in bed.

[GoldenTickets]

I am sorry about your bad news, but glad that you were able to speak with one of the doctors tonight. I hope the bleeding slows down tonight, and that you are able to rest.

[Halfbaked]

I hope the bleeding slows down and eventually stops. I don't know if it would help but I hemorrhaged after one of my babies and became very anemic. I was told to take red raspberry leaf to help slow things down. I know it's supposed to help tone your uterus too. Can't hurt to try. If it continues, and they think you need surgery, I'd try to see a specialist. I hope it doesn't come to that. I was also told I'd never have kids or that I'd die if I did. It took a lot of faith and me seeking a specialist to have my kids. Hang onto that hope. You'll be in our T&P's.

[ohnicole]

I'm sorry the bleeding picked up again, Megan I hope it has slowed down and you are feeling a little better about it today.

[Pitridge]

I agree that the more you do the more you will bleed, it happened to me after my m/c.
I'm sorry about the bad news, but I agree with the last doctor you talked to. There is still the possibility that it will resolved on its on. Also, doctors do say the worse case scenario, I know it's hard but stay positive and rest. HUGS.

[~InHisHands~]