Sigh...

GoldenTickets · #1 September 1st, 2010, 02:52 PM

I am around what would have been my 12 week mark for my pregnancy. Over the past few weeks, I have had multiple people on facebook announce the sex of their pregnancies. I have been dreading seeing posts from people announcing their pregnancies, and saw one yesterday. Luckily, it's someone that I never really see anymore, because she lives out of state. I just hope that none of my local friends announce their pregnancies soon....sigh

The medical claims for all of my ob appointments and D&C have been processed, with the m/c diagnosis there in black and white....sigh

I scheduled my annual physical with my primary care doctor for next week, and got my bloodwork competed today. With my insurance, I have to go to a certain lab for my bloodwork, and the same phlebotomist is always there. Although I am only there maximum a few times/year, she always remembers who I am (at least by face). When I was there last month it was for my initial pregnancy bloodwork, and at that time I was commenting on how that is the most blood she's ever had to get from me. (And she said that that would be the worst blood draw... She said it's like they say "Congratulations! Let me take your blood!") She's a great phlebotomist though, because if she remembered why I was there last time she knew not to say anything.... sigh

I really am doing pretty good today, I just felt like letting out a big sigh. Anyone else having a day like this?

shen7 · #2 September 1st, 2010, 03:28 PM

I hate that medical paperwork that keeps popping up, just when it's not on your mind that much anymore, it's like "hey, let's take a walk down memory lane!!"... I thought the trauma of my ectopic internal bleed (5/31) was getting behind me. Then yesterday I got ANOTHER bill, this one for the ambulance that brought me into the ER that night. All itemized with the IV, oxygen, fluids and shots, etc. Last night I had trouble sleeping because I was just re-living the terror, the pain, the ultrasound tech who looked at me like I was completely insane when I asked if she could see the embryo.

It had been quite awhile since I really re-lived any of that, and I thought I was over it. Thanks, medical system, for sending me bills 3 months later to drag it all up again.

Sigh... stare blankly at wall...

TTCin2010 · #3 September 1st, 2010, 03:31 PM

I hate to delete a friend off facebook, bc she is due a few days before me. I couldnt stand seeing her updates. HUGS

HopefulMommy81 · #4 September 1st, 2010, 03:33 PM

Yep, I''m having one of those days, too! I understand and am sending out big

Kary♥RN · #5 September 1st, 2010, 06:35 PM

HUGS... After my last loss it is so hard to see certain posts.... I could handle the ladies from TTCAL.. Since I knew the road and losses they had endured... but the ladies who had not had losses... I couldn't bear to see thier posts.. I know it is almost a double standard... But I couldn't and sometimes still can't bear to see certain posts.. HUGS

Halfbaked · #6 September 1st, 2010, 10:59 PM

I should be 16wks and finding out the sex. I just can't think about it at all or I start crying. Hard to ttc when your too busy crying to dtd. I had to hide my cousins posts on Facebook because she kept complaining about her newborn.

sheephater321 · #7 September 2nd, 2010, 05:42 AM

I'm so sorry for your loss and I'm sorry about your struggle seeing those posts. I completely understand. I've had two losses and I have two close girlfriends who now seem like they want to get pregnant. It's as if I put the idea into their mind and now they won't quit posting/talking about pregnancy and babies. It also doesn't help that one of them has a birthday on Oct. 21(my original due date) I'm not so sure I can celebrate too easily with them. Anyways though, that's my own little rant. I too can't stand all the facebook posts. I'm so sorry that you have to deal with all of this. I wish you all the best.

GoldenTickets · #8 September 3rd, 2010, 04:37 AM

right back to you all! I wish we weren't experiencing this at all, but I'm glad that I'm not the only one! I saw another facebook post about pregnancy yesterday, but the girl who posted it had a m/c last year. So I'm relieved and happy for her.

BeccaM · #9 September 3rd, 2010, 03:40 PM

I am so sorry. I have had and Im sure will have many of those days. This month is my EDD so Im sure I will have a tough time. We all understand what you are going through. Just remember we are here for you! HUGZ!

.:Shortcake:. · #10 September 3rd, 2010, 05:11 PM

Hugs! I am sorry I know some posts from friends IRL get to me... one actually just posted that she is 30 weeks and she can't wait to get the kid out so she can have a been! SeriouslY!?! What is wrong with some people... Sorry rant over!

GoldenTickets · #11 September 3rd, 2010, 07:05 PM

I don't necessarily get upset with moms that complain about getting the baby out.. I can't even imagine how uncomfortable it is!

I had a friend of a friend ask DH and I today when we'd be having kids today... First time since the m/c. I handled it with no issues (just mumbled something about talking about it), but my answers led the woman to think two things: 1) DH is a goober and doesn't want kids and 2) that I'm trying to play the "oops" card and have stopped taking birth control.... Haha. She's goofy and was the comic relief at the gathering, but was still an akward situation for me.