Some how I got suckered into the 2WW.... update

little.lili · #1 September 5th, 2010, 01:36 PM

So this is our 1st cycle since our loss... I had a natural m/c and was told to wait at least until this first cycle passed to TTC... We are actually planning to wait until Nov/Dec to start TTC again (mainly because of a cruise we're going on and a trip to Orlando)...

Well... I am finally nearing the time where my AF should arrive and I'm starting to suspect that maybe we could be pregnant again, already

The other day I had some cramping, but no bleeding... I've been expecting AF but nothing so far... I've had some stinging in my left breast... and I've found myself very thirsty, hungry and sleepy... all things I experienced very early on...

My family is visiting until tomorrow, and I have no plans to test while they are here... But I'm starting to get an itch to POAT...

While I would love a BFP, I'm worried that getting pregnant on this 1st cycle could be bad for the baby... and shocking to people (like having waited to little? IDK)

Ok... I'm getting ahead of myself... I know that the 1st AF can take a little longer (but I have short cycles... 24 to 26 days), so I'm sitting tight waiting a good amount of time... I'm also terrified to test to only be told that a BFP is from my previous pregnancy (IDK if that could even still happen).

But those little "symptoms" I've noticed have me really really nervous/excited/anxious/terrified/etc...

Did anyone feel this crazy waiting for their 1st AF after a m/c?

GoldenTickets · #2 September 5th, 2010, 06:25 PM

My ob told us not to worry about waiting until the next AF before trying again... But my cycles are irregular, and she had actually told us to wait initially (after the D&C). But when I showed her my cycles over the last few years at my post-op appt, she agreed that they were irregular and go ahead and try.

So, I guess I'm not really any help to you right now! I'm kind of going crazy waiting, but I also don't know when I will start due to the D&C and my irregular cycles!

But I can relate about TTC and cruises! We have a cruise in November, and the only reason we are still able to go on it is because I did have the m/c. I would've been too far along otherwise.

Halfbaked · #3 September 5th, 2010, 06:51 PM

The first cycle drove me crazy. I didn't know if my ovulation date was right or if my Dr. would be mad if we did end up pg, or if I would even be able to get pg. My AF was then late from what I thought it would be which didn't help. I analyzed every little symptom there was. When AF finally came, it was bitter sweet. At least I knew I wasn't broken. I think I'm a bit more relaxed this cycle. At least just a little bit

I hope you get a bfp soon and don't drive yourself crazy.

little.lili · #4 September 5th, 2010, 07:33 PM

Thanx for the reassurance ladies...

I just want my AF to get here... I feel like things can't go back to normal until it does... (then again, I thought things couldn't get back to normal until the bleeding stopped) I'm doing well... I just feel like I'm in a limbo right know, KWIM?

I wish things were a little simpler right now for us...

little.lili · #5 September 6th, 2010, 01:25 PM

Alright... my family is gone, and I got myself a couple of pregnancy tests...

I guess I will test in the AM... I have no idea what to expect... and I'm not sure I would be ready for another BFP

shen7 · #6 September 6th, 2010, 01:34 PM

Right there with ya Lili... I totally know the "I hope I hope I hope it's a BFP... wait, a BFP would be so stressful right now, it can't be a BFP... ACK!!!" That was me last cycle. And it lasted super long, I had no idea when I O'd, so I was rising at dawn to stare at a stick every other morning for almost 2 weeks. AF was a blessing that cycle. I will be thinking of you... keep us updated...

little.lili · #7 September 6th, 2010, 01:42 PM

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Originally Posted by shen7

Right there with ya Lili... I totally know the "I hope I hope I hope it's a BFP... wait, a BFP would be so stressful right now, it can't be a BFP... ACK!!!" That was me last cycle. And it lasted super long, I had no idea when I O'd, so I was rising at dawn to stare at a stick every other morning for almost 2 weeks. AF was a blessing that cycle. I will be thinking of you... keep us updated...

LOL yup... I feel like a yo-yo... one moment I am praying for a BFP... and a few minutes later I feel terrified it might be...

Well... whatever is... already is... I just need an answer

little.lili · #8 September 7th, 2010, 05:39 AM

Tested this AM...

BFN

I feel good about it. It's the 1st test I've taken since my pregnancy and I think what I was more scared of was getting a BFP and have it be from left over hormones... I'm glad to see a BFN and know that at least the hormones are out of my system and I should have my AF soon...

As for TTC... We still plan to wait until nov/dec... but if we are blessed with a BFP in the next few cycles, I think we will both be very very happy to try again...

little.lili · #9 September 7th, 2010, 06:20 AM

It's HERE

My 1st AF is finally here!!!! I just went to the bathroom and I wiped pink!!!
I am SOOOO happy and excited...

I know that my baby is gone and I can't have him or her back... but now I can move on... it's over... and I can start over now

bitter sweet... but I am so happy right now!!!!

shen7 · #10 September 7th, 2010, 06:50 AM

Great to have that certainty, Lili!!! Your body is getting right back on track.

Enjoy your "break" and good luck when you get back to TTC...

yoyomama · #11 September 7th, 2010, 09:46 AM

Yay for AF!

glad things are going back to normal for you , I just had my first af last month 4wks after dnc , so that is prett good! oh and mine started pinkish for a few days before it came pretty heavy JFYI

little.lili · #12 September 7th, 2010, 10:05 AM

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Originally Posted by yoyomama

Yay for AF!

glad things are going back to normal for you , I just had my first af last month 4wks after dnc , so that is prett good! oh and mine started pinkish for a few days before it came pretty heavy JFYI

Yes it's still pretty light, when I was told by my OB that it would likely be very heavy... so we will see! This is also my 1st AF since I got BCpills so I really have no idea what to expect... My periods on BC were super light and short, while before they were long and heavy...

Oh well... I'm just glad it's here.

Cheers to a new cycle

Pitridge · #13 September 7th, 2010, 11:37 AM

Happy new cycle!

Banned-a brand new laura · #14 September 7th, 2010, 03:01 PM

Isn't it so funny. Sometimes in our life, AF can be such a blessing (like when fooling around as a teenager) and sometimes AF can be a real

when TTC. Glad to hear things are going better now that the witch showed up.

little.lili · #15 September 7th, 2010, 03:13 PM

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Originally Posted by the young mrs. trimble

Isn't it so funny. Sometimes in our life, AF can be such a blessing (like when fooling around as a teenager) and sometimes AF can be a real

when TTC. Glad to hear things are going better now that the witch showed up.

Seriously!

I don't think I've been happy to see my AF for about 2 years

(not that we were TTC.. but I had some SERIOUS baby fever haha)

I'm sure by the time this cycle is over I will be rooting for a BFP again

And as a side note... cramps are kicking in and I'm not feeling so excited anymore LOL!!!

yoyomama · #16 September 7th, 2010, 03:18 PM

Ive never been on any type of BC but my period has always been med heavy first couple of days , but last month after dnc my af was extremly heavy , i was soaking up pads like crazy and then it slowed down 3 or 4th day. after my af a wk later i had brown discharge for like 3days which ive never had before my dnc so dont worry if this happens i think its normal LOL anyways just a heads up