Update in post #1... Confused (loss mentioned)

missy123 · #1 September 8th, 2010, 07:02 AM

I went and had my ultrasound today. They didn't see anything but a cyst on my right ovary. No sack or anything. No baby, I will probably stop the progesterone now and let nature take its course. I am so numb right now... I really wanted this baby so much.

We are done TTC, I am not even sure how to get through this loss. I was so hopeful.

Update: My betas came back at 16,000 today which means they are doubling every 1.8 days. I have to go back in on Friday for another ultrasound. I am so confused and so are the doctors/nurses. Could it be a tubal pregnancy? If so, what happens next?

dreamer10 · #2 September 8th, 2010, 07:04 AM

I love you Missy....

missy123 · #3 September 8th, 2010, 07:14 AM

Thanks Jules, Love you too.

ohnicole · #4 September 8th, 2010, 07:17 AM

I'm so sorry, Missy.

That is just so unbelievably unfair.

We all love you.

TTCin2010 · #5 September 8th, 2010, 07:18 AM

I am so sorry hugs

shen7 · #6 September 8th, 2010, 07:19 AM

I was hopeful for you too...... I'm so, so sorry Missy.... I'm sending you lots of love through the electronic ether right now.....

Kary♥RN · #7 September 8th, 2010, 07:27 AM

HUGS... I know I have already told you this... But I am so sorry.. and I am so
p!ssed that you are going through this... It is so not fair. I just don't understand your numbers, your tests... It just makes me sooo mad. HUGS... I wanted this so bad for you. I love you xoxoxoxoxo

Halfbaked · #8 September 8th, 2010, 07:46 AM

Oh sweetie. This just isn't fair. Did they say anything about why you had good hcgs? It doesn't make any sense. HUGS

Pitridge · #9 September 8th, 2010, 07:49 AM

I'm so so sorry........I hate seeing you going through this again. HUGS

MamaRN · #10 September 8th, 2010, 08:25 AM

Oh Missy my heart just broke reading this post......I am so very sorry.

((HUGS))

BeccaM · #11 September 8th, 2010, 08:33 AM

Missy my heart is breaking for you. Im so sorry you are having to go through this again. We are here for you.

KAB · #12 September 8th, 2010, 08:33 AM

Oh Missy, my heart is just breaking for you.

I'm so, so sorry.

mmllhh · #13 September 8th, 2010, 08:42 AM

Missy, this just isn't even fair. I'm so sorry that you have to go thru this AGAIN. How many weeks are you? could it just be too early?

Celena · #14 September 8th, 2010, 08:50 AM

this can't be happening

Missy, God I want to be there for you right now more than ever. I can't believe it. This just isn't fair. Not fair!!!

I love you honey, not that it makes it all better...

I'm speechless.

MeganMomof5 · #15 September 8th, 2010, 09:28 AM

Missy, i'm so so so very sorry...I wish there was more I could do...I'm sad for you

...I hate seeing things like this happen to such good people (((Hugs)))

momof6lopez · #16 September 8th, 2010, 09:32 AM

Missy, your in my heart so much today. I wish there was something I could do/say to make this pain go away, but we all know to well there is nothing.....get through this however you have to, and just know there are alot of women thinking of you today.

Lots of Love, hugs and prayers coming to you.

Banned-a brand new laura · #17 September 8th, 2010, 09:46 AM

Missy, I don't have the words to make anything better, but I want you to know we ALL love you.

I don't understand it either. Your miracle bean seemed to be doing great, with those numbers. How could there be so much hCG but no sack or baby? Maybe it is just too early... Oh, honey. I am SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO sorry...

ldovey83 · #18 September 8th, 2010, 10:04 AM

Oh no Missy... When I saw this post my heart dropped... My heart is breaking for you... I am still going to be praying for a miracle and hold out hope that baby was hiding.. Did they do a transvaginal? I don't mean to cause more pain I was just curious.. I know sometimes doing ontop the abdomen you don't see it.. HUGE HUGE hugs coming your way.. You know we are all here for you, and we all hurt for you.. It is so not fair.... No one should have to go through this let alone multiple losses... We love you, and feel free to let it all out....

.:Shortcake:. · #19 September 8th, 2010, 10:20 AM

Missy as I sit here and write this my eyes are blurred with the tears that are falling for the loss of your baby. I know what your going through right now. The anger, the why me, and no matter what I want you to know your angel is watching over you. I love you and if you need to talk I'm here. They only thing that gets me through each day is know that I have my DH and the love of you all on this board. You are an amazing woman and you are strong. This little angel came to you for a reason and it sure as hell isn't fair that you lost yet another one. I would give anything to be there for you right now, be that shoulder for you to lean/cry on. I wish I could take away all the pain and sadness for you. Just know that I am here and please take care of yourself. Your in my thoughts and prayers.

missy123 · #20 September 8th, 2010, 10:43 AM

Thank you all from the bottom of my heart. I sobbed so hard, to the point the poor cats were crying then I fell asleep in DF's arms for a few hours. I love that man so much, he is so good to me.

They took bloodwork again today and I should have the beta's back in a few hours. Then a plan will be put into place as to what will happen.

She did see what she thought might be a sack or might be fluid very, very, very low lying. Either way it is not a good outcome.

Thank you again ladies.

Oh, and to you that are preggers, you do not have to turn your siggies off around me! I am super happy for all of you!