[Halfbaked]

I'm probably just getting depressed but I just don't think anything is happening this cycle. Dh got sick the 2 days I really thought we needed to bd and my temps are all over the place. I also had 3 days of positive opks so I really don't know when I O'd. If I count backwards from when I expect af, I'd only be 8dpo today. stupid me thought I was close to 10 and used the only test I have and of course, stark white. My blood sugars have also been like a rollercoaster and I'm sure my endo is going to say to stop until it gets all straightened out and is good for a few months. I hate this stupid disease!

I should be 17wks today and finding out the sex. Instead I'm trying to just get back to the 8wks I was before. Thanks for letting me vent. I wish I could be as positive as all you ladies here. I'm just feeling really down right now.

[ohnicole]

I'm sorry you're feeling down We've all been there (in fact I'm joining you in the dumps right now ), and it just plain stinks. I hope that all your worries are just the TTCAL crazies and that you get your BFP soon!

[missy123]

It is normal and ok not to feel positive and be really sad. I was the queen of anger and depression for almost a year.

Close your eyes and picture all of us hugging you tight. Cry. Cry real hard and release some of your hurt. Hug your favorite blanket or stuffed animal. Remind yourself that your baby is watching over you and you will see your baby again someday. It is ok, crying helps.

Please do something nice for yourself today. Even if just means taking a bubble bath or reading a mindless romance novel. If you need to cry in between all that it is ok too.

I would recommend not focusing on TTC for a month and channel all of that energy into yourself and your husband. Believe it or not, but that was the key to my recovery and what has helped make me strong this time around.

I understand your need and want for a baby... I understand it all too well. But you need to take care of you two sweetie. ((( Big Huge Group Hugs to you )))

[Banned-a brand new laura]

Hi Rebecca. I've felt pretty... I don't know, embarrassed I guess, because of all of the positivity on the board and myself just feeling so down. I'm in this little self-loathing stage. I try to stay positive but it's really difficult most days. DH and I had an awful, awful, awful, awful fight last night. It lasted until about 6am, started at 1am, and... ugh, I don't know. I'm not making any sense right now because I'm tired and headachey and just down. So I know what you mean. Hope you feel better, honey.

[Halfbaked]

Thanks everyone. Not feeling much better today. I keep looking at my chart thinking it looks triphasic, but if that were the case, then I should be getting positives. I just wish my cycles were shorter so I could get on with it already. I wish it wasn't a weekend. At least during the week I'm busy with the kids school. I'm too distracted to do anything productive and the time is just creeping by.