[MeganMomof5]

First off all, sorry I haven't been very active...We have been really busy, plus i'm just down...September and October are forever going to be bad months for me...The 21st of September last year I found out Ella was a girl, it was the last time I ever saw her alive ...Then the 23rd was my surgery, the 28th of this year is my 2nd baby's due date, and the 30th is the day I think that Ella died, so i'm just trying to keep myself busy, and JM seems to make things kind of worse...Next month I think i'm going to be a mess.

Well Any way, i'm now on day 3 of no bleeding!!! So i'm pretty sure that everything has healed up...I haven't even had any sort of spotting...Today however i've been getting cramps on and off...I think I got cramps pretty bad a few days or a week before I got AF last time after my miscarriage, which was 9 days after I had stopped bleeding...My bleeding was not from my miscarriage, so I guess it's possible that AF could come any day...It's 6 weeks tomorrow since my miscarriage...Now that i'm no longer bleeding, it's hard for me not to think about TTC...We have DTD 2 times and it's been the first time in almost 2 years since we have prevented a pregnancy...I keep just telling myself in one month i'll be getting ready to get my blood test...Hopefully the month will fly by...I'm still trying to focus on other things....I have no control over TTC or my body, so i'm trying to lose weight still, and i'm becoming really OCD about housework lol...So any way, I hope everyone is doing well...I will probably become more active once I get closer to TTC again.

[missy123]

#1 - My first 3 cycles after my loss last year I cramped so bad for days I started bleeding and I hardly ever cramped my whole life. They got so bad I almost went to the ER. It was horrible. Hopefully this means the start to your cycle.

#2 - While JM has been my salvation at times over the years I have also had to take time away from these boards as well.

((Hugs))

[ohnicole]

Megan, I'm sorry you're having such a rough month But I'm glad that it seems like your bleeding has stopped. One step at a time I guess. I hope that your blood test next month is here before you know it so you can TTC again!