[ldovey83]

So I had a friend that is due around my third loss post belly pics and a baby growth thing on her facebook page, and all the emotions came back.... Not to bring it up or hurt anyone else, but if I wouldn't have lost my third baby I would be this far along....

I would be finding out the gender and feeling my babies movements.. I would be wearing maternity clothes.. I would have that beautiful pregnancy glow...

If I wouldn't have lost my last baby I would be...

I would be just happy to still be pregnant... Seeing a baby shaped fetus on the ultrasound machine..

Instead: I am sitting here bawling my eyes out (finally!!!!!!!!!!!!)... On AF which makes it that much worse....Wishing and wondering why I couldn't be one of the ones looking at the ultrasounds, and hearing the heartbeat, or even feeling movements..

Sorry ladies I just needed to get it off.. I guess writing it down helped..

[ohnicole]

Huge hugs, Lindsey I hope you feel a little better soon. I wish you didn't have to go through this pain.

[missy123]

I am so sorry. I have never had the guts to do that and monitor what stage I would be at... It would hurt too much. You are very brave.

Cry, cry a lot... It helps.

[ldovey83]

I havn't been intentionally monitoring where I should be... I have friends in both months that are due just days around me.. One is my cousin so I can't stay away from it.. I just showed those in my expression, but I don't have a ticker to folllow it.. I am just trying to get it off my chest..

[tobi4]

Im sorry hun. Its good you are able to grieve your loss, let it out, you know we are all right here with you. I agree with Missy, cry .. and cry. But Lindsey, don't forget to laugh sometimes too hun. ~hugs~

[missy123]

vent away... we understand and are right here for you. ((Hugs))

[Brittanie]

I'm crying for you sweetie. This is so unfair. I hate that you feel this way, but I'm glad you are able to cry.

[ldovey83]

Thanks ladies for understand and being there.. God it means the world to me to know I have so many people that care about it..

[Celena]

Lindsey honey we so know how you feel, oh gosh we know I'm so sorry! It's GOOd these emotions are releasing you need to release them as part of your healing and moving on. It helps honey, you're honoring him ot her.

I was thinking of posting all my tickers too in a sharing memorial type thread... if you wouldn't mind.

[MeganMomof5]

((Hugs))

[ldovey83]

Thanks again ladies

[JessP]

I am so sorry.