I had my d&c yesterday, and according to the dr everything went well. She told DH that I made the right choice by having the d&c because my body probably would have taken another 3-4 weeks to let go of the baby. I was pleasantly surprised by how wonderful all the hospital staff members were to me. I had prepared myself for for at least some insensitive comments, but there were none. One of the nurses shared about her 2 losses and made it a point to tell me that no matter how many children you have losing one still hurts. That hit close to home, because I have a lot of people in my life who keep telling me that I have 2 beautiful children, and I need to focus on that and not let this loss hurt me.

My doctor was quite behind because of an complications in an earlier surgery. The female anesthesiologist (who was wonderful) took my history and then told me she was going to give me some happy medicine so I didn't have to sit and worry while I was waiting for the doctor to get to me. She definitely took good care of me. When they were ready for me the male anesthesiologist came in and gave me 2 more doses of what she had given me so all I remember is being wheeled into the OR, seeing the doctor and the big light, and then nothing, which is exactly the way I wanted it. The next thing I knew I was waking up in recovery. Now that it's all over I can't even put into words how I'm feeling. My heart aches and I feel so broken inside. I so wish that none of us knew this pain. I thank God for you ladies! I didn't know about JM with my first 2 losses, and having you all to talk to is helping a lot.