[Banned-a brand new laura]

You know what ladies? I'm NOT going to let him win. By wallowing in depression and feeling sorry for myself, and restricting myself from the things I love to do, I'm only hurting myself. I love coming on JM! I love ALL of you!

So, I've decided instead of leaving, I'm just gonna be a brand new me, and I'm gonna be the best me I can be. I know it's not going to be an easy journey. The sadness is always a dull ache, and the extreme sadness comes and goes, but I remind myself I am loved.

By you ladies, for one!

And I just can't give you up. Sorry, can't do it. So, I'm going to change my handle from the young mrs. trimble to a brand new laura. I never officially changed my last name after getting married, so I don't wanna go by that name anyway.

So, guess you're not getting rid of me. Heck, I'm gonna have a lot of time on my hands. You might even see more of me! On a more serious note, the hardest part about this is that all I originally wanted was a day off to think.

He calls constantly and is now having his siblings call me and threaten me. He says he loves me and is so desperate to talk. Everytime I think I'm ready to talk, he pulls something else, like this morning or having his sister text.

Well anyway, enough rambling. Talk soon!

[mmllhh]

Love from abusers is so strange. he loves you and then has his sister threaten you.
i'm so happy that you are getting yourself away from this bad situation. I too was in an abusive relationship over 10 years ago. I remember it feeling so freeing when I finally left his loser arse. You are worth way more than he could ever give you. Keep you chin up and don't allow yourself to go back to that. Be proud of the steps you've taken.

[shen7]

YAY Laura!!! I will be very happy to have you stick around! And anytime you even THINK about talking to that jerk (OR his jerky family... and I hate to speak badly of a woman so ill, but even his mother sounds like a jerk too), just PM me and I will tell you, DON'T!!!!! So wonderful to have you back as the brand new you!!

[msshamis23]

Oh you go girl! I'm glad you aren't going to let him get you down (too much anyway) By you doing this, just proves how strong you really are. (not just staying on JM) your state of mind!

We are always here for you, and you know that

[Halfbaked]

Just don't give in and think it will be ok to talk with him just one time. My sister did that off and on for a long time before finally realizing he just isn't worth wasting time on. Keep those text messages for your lawyer and just don't message back. You're such a strong person for not letting him get you down.

[sarha81]

Laura, I hope the best for you. I know you are scared and sad w/o him, but girl, trust me, you can turn being on your own into a GREAT experience. #1 when's the last time you did something JUST FOR YOU. You didn't have to think about him, how he would feel, if he was going to be home and need dinner, if he wanted to see that chickie movie. GIRL, you are free, to find out how to make yourself happy. I started off with bubble baths and a book, and then I'd watch movies and chinese food, and I'd go for really long walks. I'd drive places by myself. I became able to lift my spirit in any situation. You can do it, girl. Start tonight by asking yourself what you can do to help you feel better — ice cream, maybe? A DVD? A bath? HUGS. Remember abusers are manipulative. He's going to tell you anything you want to hear to get you back. But you don't need him. You've got YOU!

[LisaG825]

Glad to hear that you plan on sticking around! Don't ever let anyone change who you are!

[Brittanie]

So I totally missed what was going on, but you sound like you have a great head on your shoulders. I hope it all works out for you!

[Banned-a brand new laura]

A few posts back, I said goodbye to JM. This post explains it.

http://www.justmommies.com/forums/f1...post-17-a.html (...goodbye ladies... UPDATE Post 17)

[Brittanie]

Wow, I can't believe I missed that. It was a good thing to leave that kind of thing. So many women stay for so long, it's good that you were strong enough to leave. I'm so sorry that you had to go through that though.

[ldovey83]

Laura I am so sorry you had to go through that.. Look me up on facebook.. Ldovey83@yahoo.com.. I am on alot and anytime you need to talk hun and I am on you can PM.. I said in my other post I wish I could give you a big ole hug and keep you company, but for now we are all here for you.

[ohnicole]

Laura, I am so sorry that you are going through this, hon But I am so happy and so proud that you are doing what's best for you, and that you've decided to make the most of a bad situation! We are all here to support you!

[Pitridge]

I agree with what the ladies are saying/ You are strong and don't let someone like that change who you are. Also, I think you should talk to him once and not alone, in a public place with someone that you know close by. As much as I don't think he deserved you even looking at him again, I think talking won't hurt, again, in a public place where he can't hurt you. Keep all the text that he is sending, that his family is sending (why are they sending you text messages?).
Get to know yourself better, enjoy your company (it sound weird but many people don't like themselves). You are very strong and you re doing the right thing. We are all here for you.