[sarha81]

Today's events:
1. Waitress at the diner to my mom: "Where are the grand babies?"
Mom: "She has time."
Lady: "Oh I get it. You don't want them right now. I don't blame you."
(Someday I will have the guts to tell people like this to F OFF!)

2. Mom started talking to me about IUI and I start pouring tears just thinking of the m/c. Mom: "Oh honey" (she laughs) "the hormones are making you crazy." HORMONES? No, mom, sadness! is making me cry. But I just let her think whatever.

3. E-mail from my college friend: "Hey ladies, just want to share some good news... blah blah blah" she's pregnant due in f'n April, of course. I want to write, "Hey ladies, my baby-to-be due in April died. TTYL." Then i remember looking forward to sending that e-mail to them :-(

I have anxiety in feet! I had it in my chest all night but the e-mail made my legs to my feet go numb and tense. How is that even possible?

Thank god for this board, for you ladies who know how this feels and have gone through this. I have no one to talk to tonight.

[Banned-a brand new laura]

I think my family is sick of hearing about my loss. That's why I don't talk about it. My friend and I were pregnant and due the same. exact. day. I constantly see her FB updates. I about had a nervous breakdown last night when she posted her 20 week belly. I was so sick after seeing it. I'm so glad we ladies can come together and talk and say stuff that doesn't make sense to anyone else. My most unfavorite phrase? "I understand" when someone clearly does not. I never worry about that here.

[sarha81]

True, Laura, I always feel like its ok to say what's on the brain here because these ladies know!

[LisaG825]

I am so sorry. It sucks when stuff like that happens. It seems like I have people ask me all the time if I have any kids. I just tell them no not yet. We will one day though. Makes me want to cry every single time.