[okiliz]

Hiya gals,
Ok.. So.. this morning I called and made my CD 3 appointment !!!! I am so excited.. but.. I also feel kind of sad.. like I am really moving on... or I am being disloyal to my twins that I lost.. but then part of me thinks they want me to be happy and are watching from above.. maybe even talking to the new baby(s) to come , telling them it is safe and ok ... Our first IUI worked.. the dr seemed to think we had a good chance for this one to work and I am more informed this time about the effects of PCOS.. So I will demand progesterone and take baby asprin after O .. Money will be tight, I will be scared.. Hubby is totally optimistic.. which helps.. he really wants another baby... Even my oldest daughter Alaina who is 6 prays to jeasus at night to give mommy and daddy new babies.. She wants us to have a boy and a girl.. and sometimes she says she wants a boy, a girl and another boy.. :-) I'll be happy with anything.. I jsut feel like this is a huge step.. It's our first big real try since our loss 4 months ago and while I am over the moon to be starting I just feel kind of mixed up inside .. I really want this to work and I am trying to stay calm.. but since losing the twins I have thought everyday about what they would have been like,w hat they would have looked like ... and hoping non stop that we will get pregnant again soon... I pray that my overies will behave and pop out at least 3 eggies again, maybe even 4 just to give us a better chance... I know I will be asking many more questions in the days to come.. but the main one right now is... How do you guys stay calm or rather how did you guys stay calm the first offical time you tried after your losses ?

Oh and how do we know if we are a member on here? I post on here a lot and have been on here for about 4 months now.. but I did not know if I had to become an offical member or not

[ohnicole]

I hope your appointment goes well and you end up with your BFP soon!

[ldovey83]

I can understand the mix emotions you are feeling right now.. Your twins are looking down from Heaven and are happy for you.. I am sure they would want you to be happy about moving forward.. I know it isn't easy though.. It is great that you are getting the testing and that things look better.. I wish you the best of luck and I hope you get that BFP soon.. Best of luck to you...