I think we're ready to jump in again...

little.lili · #1 October 21st, 2010, 11:26 AM

Recently I have been very quiet about TTC... I haven't brought it up at all in the last month (which is madness when I used to talk about it almost daily).

Well... someone had to bring it up... and it's been Dh for a change...

He's been talking about kids and babies the last few days and it has really melted my heart to hear him finally be excited and interested in trying. (Before I was pregnant it was still a little iffy for him...)

It's been a little weird and bitter sweet... I'm still shook up about our loss and I think about it all the time, and TTC just scares me now... But OMG am I excited to hear Dh talk about how we will have a baby next year to take them to the pumpkin patch, or watching me with my friend's kids and saying I'm going to be a good mom, or asking me when I want to try again

I am going to have a breast biopsy the week after the next and after that we will be in the clear to start trying again

I'm a little scared that I may already be pregnant

but I think that's just in my head b/c of all the talk of babies... And the only reason I would be a bit upset would be b/c of the biopsy... I really need to get that done, and no matter how small a procedure, I very much doubt I will be able to go through it while pregnant... But it's not gonna happen, I really doubt we had sex on the right dates this time around... lol

So yeah... that's my update... I'm scared out of my mind, but the more I think about it, the happier I feel...

ohnicole · #2 October 21st, 2010, 12:30 PM

I'm glad that DH is letting his excitement show

That's always so fun! I hope you get your sticky BFP soon!

missy123 · #3 October 21st, 2010, 05:00 PM

I understand everything you said. It is so sweet when the guys talk about wanting to have a baby and what it would be like... Good Luck with your surgery and I hope you get pregnant right after!