[luvmykids623]

Most of you know about my friend at work who is due 2 days before I was. It's been tough being across the hall from her and watching her belly grow every day, but I made whatever peace I could with it, because it isn't going to change. Then I found out that our Pre-K teacher is pregnant and due the week after I was. I don't see her as much as I see the other one, although I have noticed that I see her a lot more this year than I have in years passed. She's a really sweet person, and I just keep reminding myself that when I see her growing belly. Well about 2 weeks ago I started to suspect that our ESL teacher is pregnant too. She's a bean pole, and her stomach isn't nearly as flat as it has always been. I tried to convince myself that since she has a toddler maybe she's eating what he's eating and is just gaining weight. The whole time knowing that another bomb was about to get dropped. I got confirmation today- she's due in May. I see her multiple times a day. I feel like I'm going to lose it. There's only so much that a human mind and heart can take, and I hit my limit 2 preggos ago. Part of me is really happy for them, but most of me is dying inside. It's all I can do to keep it together. Every time I start to get to an "okay" point someone else announces they're pregnant. I don't know how I'm going to make it through this school year watching them walking around with big ole baby bumps when I'm so empty. AF hasn't even returned from the d&c so we can start trying yet. I find myself wondering what I did to deserve to not only lose my 3rd child but to be kicked every time I try to get back up. I swear if one more preggo pops out of the woodwork I'm going to need a rubber room.

[ohnicole]

Lori, my heart is breaking for you Those reminders of what we lost are so hard. I wish I could do something to make it a little easier on you, hon

[ashj_1218]

Is it horrible that I am glad you feel this way, because it means I am not alone? I hate, hate, hate that you have to watch your fellow teachers everyday...growing...while you are not. But I have to admit that I have been feeling horrible because I am seriously jealous and hateful when it comes to people announcing their pregnancies. We have a lot in my family right now. They just keep coming. And I know it is mean and horrible, but I can't stop thinking of ways to avoid them. I tell myself to be happy for them and that I am grateful they are adding to their families. But I can't help but hate them for getting pregnant so easily. I wish I could give you a hug. Because I totally am right there on that page with you. And it is so hard. hang in there girlie.

[Brittanie]

it's hard. It really is. It doesn't make you an awful person to feel this way though.

[Halfbaked]

I'm sorry you are going through this. Just keep telling yourself that it's going to be you soon. Hold onto that hope and hopefully it will get you through.
It's totally normal to feel the way you do. I feel it just hearing about someone else, let alone seeing someone every day.

[MeganMomof5]

(((Hugs)))) I'm so sorry you surrounded by pregnant woman, I wouldn't be able to handle it ...I hope you get AF soon and can start TTC...I wish I knew what else to say to help you...We are here any time you need to vent....(((HUgs)))) again.

[gigi2195]

After 10 yrs of ttc & two m/c's I can tell you that I totally understand how you feel. Its totally normal for you to be feeling this way. You're not a bad person. You're just going through the normal emotions that all of us have been through after a m/c. I know that right now it doesn't seem like this but this feeling/pain will get better and you'll be able to get back to yourself. I know that its going to be hard getting through your day but try concentrating on yourself and what you need to do in order to feel better for yourself. I trust that if we are strong enough to get through this heart wrenching pain, then we're able to get through anything. You're going to be fine. Keep your head up sweetie.