Any advice?

BWGoldman · #1 October 30th, 2010, 07:25 PM

We lost our baby right before 10 weeks and I had a D&C on October 8th. I think it was even harder to lose this baby because we had heard it's heartbeat the week before. I don't think it's ever easy. This is my confirmed 2nd miscarriage, though I think that it is actually my 3rd. The farthest along I've ever been for sure.

Once we had the go ahead from the doc, we BD'd again. Within a day or two, I had my ovulation symptoms and this week, I tested positive (tuesday) when I tested. Is it really possible that I am pregnant, or is this just leftover HCG from the miscarriage? Today, I had another glop (sorry

) of what looked like cervical mucus, but even thicker and a little whiter than my ovulation typical fluid. It seemed like a lot.

The only thing that I know for sure is that I had a f/u ultrasound after the D&C to make sure all the "articles of conception" were removed, and they were, and I had no infection. My lining was still pretty thick though afterwards, and I didn't really bleed a whole lot. I did have a spot of blood on Saturday before I tested positive.

I don't know what to think and I have such confusing feelings about this all. Part of me is really hoping that I am and that this one works out, the other is kind of scared after everything that's happened. I am wondering if I am ever going to trust that everything is okay during a pregnancy. And I don't even know if I am really pregnant, or if I can trust the test. Anyone have any feelings or advice?

B

Best to you all and thanks to everyone who writes. It took me this long to actually get to a point where I could write on here, though I've been reading everyone's helpful info and posts for a few weeks. Thanks again to everyone.

shen7 · #2 October 30th, 2010, 07:54 PM

Hi hun,
I'm so sorry for your loss... *hugs* I think it's possible that you're pg again (that would be awesome!) but also possible that it is "leftover" hcg. Did you ever take a home pg test and get a BFN after your D&C? If so, it's very hopeful for a new pg! If not, I don't think you can know for sure. In that case I would probably keep taking HPT's and see if the line gets darker and darker over several days.

Either way I think you ought to call your doctor on Monday!!

and I'll hope for a good outcome for you!!!!!

ldovey83 · #3 October 30th, 2010, 08:28 PM

Hi hun.. I am so sorry to hear about your loss. No loss is easy no matter if it is the first, second , or third or fifth.. They all hurt.. HUGS!!! As for the positive pregnancy test you could very well be pregnant.. Definitely call your DR so they can do a blood beta, and like SHEN7 said keep testing to see if the tests get darker.. I wish you the best of luck hun..

Halfbaked · #4 October 30th, 2010, 10:47 PM

I'm sorry for your losses. Like the others said, you could be pg or it could be leftover hcg. Either way, I'd make an appt with your Dr. to have your hcg levels checked. Hopefully your tests will keep getting darker and you'll have your sticky bean.

*~ Joni ~* · #5 October 31st, 2010, 05:44 AM

Everyone has said what I would say. Keep testing and call doc monday for bloodwork. My loss was in early October at 10 weeks too.

asunflower · #6 October 31st, 2010, 05:46 AM

I have been through that as well. It is so hard to think positive about the next pregnancy after all that has happened. Hang in there and know that at least you can get pregnant unlike so many others out there and trust that there is a plan for you. The Dr. tries to assure us that everything is gone after the D&C but we always really question it. It is great they did an u/s as I have not had those in the past and often wondered. I would trust the Dr. and the u/s at this point in time and go with the I'm pregnant thought! Good luck! I would definitely call the Dr. on Monday and go in for blood work so you can know for sure. We are thinking of you!

luvmykids623 · #7 October 31st, 2010, 09:32 AM

I'm so sorry for your loss!

I think the only way you're going to find out if you're truly pregnant or if it's leftover hcg from the original pregnancy is to have a beta series done. It really could be either one. I just had my 3rd loss in September and had to have a d&c at 11 weeks (9/21). I was still getting faintly positive pregnancy tests 5 weeks later. I finally got what I'm hoping is a truly negative test 2 days ago. I know that there are some ladies who have gone longer than that and some who it left their system quickly. I hope you're able to get some answers and you get your sticky baby soon!

Servilia · #8 October 31st, 2010, 10:15 AM

I hope it's a new pregnancy but it very well could be left over hcg.

I had my D&C Oct. 13 (5 days after you) at 11 weeks. On this last Friday I had a blood test and my hcg was at 200 and today I still got a BFP. In my case it's leftover hcg.

I agree the only way to know for sure is to get a series of bw done. Or if you can't do that now, do another test in a week and see if it's lighter or darker.

Good luck!

Good luck and I hope it's a new pregnancy

ohnicole · #9 October 31st, 2010, 02:11 PM

The other girls have given you good advice. I hope you can get the beta hcg bloodwork done and figure out what is going on!

BWGoldman · #10 October 31st, 2010, 07:01 PM

Thanks everyone. This morning I tested again (Dr. said to wait until 11/6, but I couldn't wait). It was negative. I am in the worst mood. I went and spent halloween with my nieces and nephews thinking that would cheer me up, but it seems that Christmas isn't the only holiday that makes me feel empty right now. I can't even walk through the walmart without seeing "baby's first christmas" ornaments and tearing up. I feel like such a goof ball. I know all the right things that I'm "supposed" to think and tell myself, and they don't matter. Now I think I'm getting a bit of a bug to top it off.
I guess I'm just waiting for my period to get me all reset and let me know that my body is getting back on track. I'm not sure how long that might take, but with my lousy mood, I'm hoping that it's soon.

Thanks for all the hugs and wishes.

asunflower · #11 November 1st, 2010, 05:18 AM

Sorry to hear that. Stay positive. Once you get AF you will know that you are back to normal chemically and you can start trying again. Just focus on the end goal and you will make it through. You are strong and you will be a better mom from these experiences.

missy123 · #12 November 1st, 2010, 09:09 AM

Don't feel like a goof ball. Pregnancy loss hurts more than anyone can ever explain and we have all felt it. It is ok to feel sad, it is normal to grieve. I wish there was something we could do to make it better for you. It just hurts and it is hard. Stay strong, vent away, we are here for you.