[.:Shortcake:.]

Ladies DH and I have been talking and he wants to be a father so badly but he hates seeing me put through this every month and then losing all of our angels has be torture for us both. If we didn't conceive this cycle (which I HIGHLY doubt we did) then we are going to stop trying for awhile. I'm tired of taking all of the medication, timing things perfectly, checking CM, taking OPK's, getting AF or getting pg and then losing the baby. We feel like we put our relationship on hold for a baby because of everything and we are going to try to just focus on us. I will still be around because I can't leave you ladies but I might not be around quite as much. I've been very depressed lately and have hit a all time low as far as how I feel about myself... Sorry this is such a downer post just wanted to update as to why I haven't been posting as much and why I won't be. I love you ladies.

UPDATE:
I honestly don't know what to think... is this a positive? Its SUPER FAINT.. but it is defiantly pink. DH and Mom sees it. I'm calling the DR in the am.... what do you think?





UPDATE: Woke up this morning and when I stood up a gush of blood poured out of me I just don't know how much more of this I can take.

[*SamF*]

Although I hope you do get your BFP and sticky lil bean this cycle, taking a break can be healing too. It gives you a little room to breathe.

[shen7]

Oh honey

Do whatever you need to do to feel better and connect w/ DH!!!!! And just know that you are very special and loved.

[.:Shortcake:.]

Thank you ladies! And please don't turn off your tickers. You ladies truly do give me hope. I'm honestly just worried that DH and I are going to end up hating each other if we don't take this break and just focus on us.

[Pitridge]

Katie.....I'm sorry, I'm sorry that it taking such a toll in your relationship. I agree that sometime for the 2 of you is overdue. I do hope you get a beautiful BFP this month.

[Halfbaked]

Ahhh sweetie, do what you need to feel better. Spending some time with dh and not worrying about timing sounds like just whatyou need.

[ldovey83]

Katie I am so sorry hun that you are going through such a rough time.. TTCAL is definitely stressful, and takes alot out on us and our marriages, and or relationships.. HUGS hun.. Hang in there...

[MeganMomof5]

Kaitie ((((Hugs)))) I'm sorry your feeling down...I hope taking a break will be good for both you and DH...I still think your going to get your BFP when you least expect it....We are here for you any time you need us! (oh and please don't give up!!!)

[ohnicole]

Awww, Katie, I'm sorry you guys are struggling so much. It is not easy to keep your relationship strong when there is so much sadness and fear to obsess about I hope that a break is just what you need to strengthen your relationship.

[dreamer10]

Katie....I think most of us have been there, and felt that way. TTC can be all consuming and I think it's good to let your body, mind and relationship heal for a while. Hang in there and know we are all always here for you!

[luvmykids623]

I'm so sorry that you're feeling down. TTCAL is so hard. I'm praying that you get your beautiful sticky bfp this cycle. If not I'll be praying for peace and healing for you and DH.

[Brittanie]

I agree with the other ladies. Sometimes a break from the stress and the heartache is a good thing.

[BeccaM]

Katie, Im so sorry you and DH are having a rough time right now. TTCAL is very stressfull. I understand the need to take time for your relationship. We will be here for you!

[JessP]

A break is something we all need from time to time. I hope that is just what you guys need and that your relationship will be stronger for it. I hope the break will surprise you if you don't get your sticky bfp this month .

[.:Shortcake:.]

Thanks ladies. Not sure what is going on. AF so far today is a no show... I did not test because I've been having pre-af symptoms for days... so if she doesn't show by the AM I will test.

[mmllhh]

Katie, i hope you get your bfp. IF you don't then I think you should just take a break for a few months. It can make the world of difference. You can look at him like the hot stuff that he is instead of a walking sperm machine....Gross, i know. But that is how I started to feel about DH for a while.

[.:Shortcake:.]

bump with update

[Brittanie]

Oh I see that clear as day. lol. I usually don't see them either. WOOHOO!

[luvmykids623]

I see it too! Looks like a bfp to me. Ohhhh I hope this is it for you!

[MeganMomof5]

I see it!!! I really hope this is it for you...That's exactly what my faint positives looked like on IC's too (after I knew I was pregnant)...I'm going to keep all crossables crossed for you!!!!