[dreamer10]

Well....after what has been one of the longest months of my life I have started my period...(on day 6 of my cycle acutally) and now the pg test I took last night was negative. I am relieved, in a way it's like getting a little closure. Now on to the positive. I want to try again soon, but I am scared to death. After 4 losses in one year I don't think anyone would blame me. Most everyone in my family and most of my friends think trying again would be foolish and selfish. After a lot of thought, I think I will try again, and that acutally makes me nervous, but excited. I want to be positive, and I am talking the attitude. I want to look forward, and keep my chin up and accept whatever my future holds. I want to keep my hope and faith alive because it's not only what the people in my life need right now, but I think it would disrespect the babies I lost not to. They are depending on me still, even though they are not with me right now.

I love this board, I love you ladies and I can't help but have hope and faith for us all. It just feels right to do that.....

[ohnicole]

Julie, I can think of a lot of things that TTCAL might be... difficult, emotional, scary, frustrating.... but not one of them is foolish or selfish. Since when is it wrong to feel that your family isn't complete? I am glad that you are going forward with what you want, regardless of those who judge. Good luck!

[msshamis23]

Julie, I agree with Nicole. There is nothing selfish about what you are doing. What you are doing takes an amazing amount of strength, courage, and love. We all want to see that BFP of yours, and we will be with you every step of the way--no matter what anyone else in your life says. This is your choice. If this is what you want--then don't let what anyone says get you off of this chosen path.

[Halfbaked]

If this is what you want, then don't let anyone tell you it's the wrong thing. Having a child is the least selfish thing you can do. If I listened to everyone else, including my family, I wouldn't have any of the beautiful kids I have and despite all the trials I've been through to get them, I never regretted doing it. I think the trials makes you appreciate it even more.

We're all hoping you get a BFP sticky bean. You're always in our thoughts and prayers. Hang in there

[missy123]

Selfish?? Woman - you devote yourself to 9 children and a husband every single day of your life. You sacrifice all of your time and a lot of who you are so that your family is well taken care of and happy and someone has the nerve to use your name and selfish in the same sentence? Bring it on!

Nice to see you made a decision... can't wait to see your bfp and your new baby soon. It is scary, but you can do it. Love you so much!!

[dreamer10]

Ladies...your so good for me! It gives me strength to keep moving forward to hear the positive feedback...but I will say again....I am extending my faith and prayers to us all! These poor hearts on this board have taken such a beating.....and I think we all could use that bfp! Here's a toast to us ladies and I have hope that we will get those babies here....sooner or later. Now me...I prefer sooner!

[luvmykids623]

Julie, I doubt you have a selfish bone in your body! Your are such a selfless and giving person. If this is what you want, then you have every right to that happiness! I, for one, can't wait to see your bfp!!

[missy123]

Margarita's all around!

[ldovey83]

Julie I want to give you one big massive ehug!!! I am glad you are finally negative. That is good news, and I am glad that you are ready to try again.. I can't say I blame you for being scared.. I am the same way.. You and I have alot in common.. Don't listen to the other people who are telling you, that you are being selfish because that is not true.. Who are they to judge you cause if they were in your shoes they wouldnt be thinking the same.. HUGE hugs!!!!!

[missy123]

Woman - you are on day 8. Have you started BD'ing yet?