[little.lili]

Hi girls...

I wanted to update on everything going on... I feel like I want to post here some times, but IDK... It feels almost rude b/c I know so many of you are TTC and how hard it is for some...

Any ways...

I am now 5 weeks 2 days (LMP). I had some blood work done last week at 4 weeks 3 days and my levels came back very high, 1,113 (or something like that b/c I was so relieved to hear the word "thousand" that the rest was a blur haha). My OB will not do a second test since my levels looked so good... I'm fine with that I guess... The wait on the results was torture any ways (they take 2 days since they have to get it sent to a lab and back).

I made my 1st appointment for the 23rd. Which is perfect timing since I will be traveling the very next day to see my parents for Thanksgiving. That's just a little over 2 weeks away. I'm excited and terrified. My 1st U/S with my last pregnancy was where everything started to look all wrong... I measured 3 weeks too small and didn't get to see the baby or heart beat... Whats worse, I got a bunch of false hope b/c I had been on BC the period before, so they thought I just Oed late... And my sac looked good so they kept telling me it was fine.... Gahh... It was awful...

So yeah... The U/S is really the last thing I'm waiting for before we tell people. I haven't told anyone yet... I'm too scared I will loose this one too...

It's just been hard, I'm so so happy to be pregnant again, but I just haven't been able to show it or share my excitement. I just feel like I'll gynx it or something... I'm also completely terrified every time I cramp... It's just blah right now...

I'm hoping everything will continue to look good and that I can enjoy my pregnancy as things progress... Right now though, it's been really hard and nerve wrecking...




Oh... and BABY DUST FOR ALL YOU LOVELY LADIES!!!

[tobi4]

My fingers are crossed for a PERFECT ultrasound, make sure to update us and let us know everything is going great! Thanks for the update, our grads help us to stay hopeful!

[JesSsica]

I've been there and I totally understand your fears. Once you've had a loss every cramp, everytime you spot even the teeniest amount, you get totally upset. Lots and lots of good luck coming your way for a wonderful u/s that will start the holiday season off right for you. Wishing you tons of easy, uneventful pregnancy vibes.

[Halfbaked]

What great numbers. I'm glad everything is looking good. Keep us updated on your U/S. There are still some of us hoping for July babies so it's good to hear from our graduates. It keeps us hopeful.

[*~ Joni ~*]

So excited for you! Fingers crossed for a perfect u/s of your perfect bean!

[Joanna1127]

hope everything continues to go well for you!!

[missy123]

You said:
It's just been hard, I'm so so happy to be pregnant again, but I just haven't been able to show it or share my excitement. I just feel like I'll gynx it or something... I'm also completely terrified every time I cramp... It's just blah right now...



I know it is scary to be pregnant after a loss and it is hard to get excited. However, really try to enjoy it. This last time I was pregnant I had so much fun being pregnant. I was scared, but still pulled out my maternity clothes, read all the pregnancy books, looked at cribs ect... Even though we lost our baby we have no regrets... It is those special moments that my husband and I shared talking about our baby that keeps me from going crazy right now.

[StaceygirlPa]

We were due couple of days apart in March of 2011. We both lost our little bean about two weeks apart. I was so happy for you when I read your post that you expecting. I pray everything goes well for you this time.

[ldovey83]

Hun that is great.. I will be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers... I hope that you get nothing but good news... I know it is really hard to enjoy it when you are so scared about loosing this one, but like Missy said do try to enjoy it... I did the same thing with my last loss. I hide it.. I didn't want to tell people till I got passed my loss date, and I regret it.. With my first 3 losses it was great having everyone celebrating with us, and I felt like I lost that with my 4th loss.. Since only a select few knew about the baby.. So HUGS!! Hang in t here and I wish you nothing but the best..

[little.lili]

Thank you everyone. I hope I do see some of you join me in the July DDC!!! That would be wonderful!!!!

Originally Posted by missy123

You said:
It's just been hard, I'm so so happy to be pregnant again, but I just haven't been able to show it or share my excitement. I just feel like I'll gynx it or something... I'm also completely terrified every time I cramp... It's just blah right now...



I know it is scary to be pregnant after a loss and it is hard to get excited. However, really try to enjoy it. This last time I was pregnant I had so much fun being pregnant. I was scared, but still pulled out my maternity clothes, read all the pregnancy books, looked at cribs ect... Even though we lost our baby we have no regrets... It is those special moments that my husband and I shared talking about our baby that keeps me from going crazy right now.

Originally Posted by ldovey83

Hun that is great.. I will be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers... I hope that you get nothing but good news... I know it is really hard to enjoy it when you are so scared about loosing this one, but like Missy said do try to enjoy it... I did the same thing with my last loss. I hide it.. I didn't want to tell people till I got passed my loss date, and I regret it.. With my first 3 losses it was great having everyone celebrating with us, and I felt like I lost that with my 4th loss.. Since only a select few knew about the baby.. So HUGS!! Hang in t here and I wish you nothing but the best..

Thank you for the advice. I know that I should be enjoying my pregnancy and that if I have another loss it might be even more painful for it to go so unnoticed... Like you said Missy, I have no regrets sharing my 1st pregnancy, it was so so wonderful to have everyone be so happy and excited for us. I just, IDK, I still don't feel the excitement myself. It's been building up every day and I just want to share the news when I'm ready to jump up and down with everyone else.... IDK... I also don't want to upset my parents, specially my mother... I feel like she felt awful she couldn't be there for me (we live far away).

But see... even now I'm planning for the worst, not the best I'm really waiting on the U/S. That will be when my pregnancy really starts for me. It's just really really surreal right now for me!!!

After my 1st U/S which will be in 2 weeks (nov 23) I will be seeing my parents the very next day and I am hoping and praying to be able to show off pictures of my tiny bean.

Originally Posted by StaceygirlPa

We were due couple of days apart in March of 2011. We both lost our little bean about two weeks apart. I was so happy for you when I read your post that you expecting. I pray everything goes well for you this time.

Thank you. HUGS!!