Been a long time. (pg and loss mentioned)

mafiamom · #1 November 23rd, 2010, 06:00 AM

I got pregnant last november and lost the baby in january during a disney vacation. we put TTC on hold for a good long time, like about a year. i have now found out i am pregnant again (same month as the last time.... scary) and i am a nervous wreck.

i am only 11 dpo - very faint lines showing and i am nervous. the last time i was PG i had dark lines at 9 dpo, so of course i am fearing a chemical. i really wish i hadn't tested so early.

i am trying to stay positive but should i make thru AF day, and beyond.... i just know i am going to be a nervous wreck. i probably wont relax until 14 weeks, and even then.... not completely, til i have that babe in arms - healthy and whole.

sorry i wasnt around and then come back with this - but this board is the only place i feel i can spew my fears and have someone understand.

i am very thankful to have another chance... i just really want it to work out ok this time!!!!!

thanks for reading

ps- i am soooo happy to see some of the mommies have graduated!!! wonderful

BeccaM · #2 November 23rd, 2010, 06:18 AM

Hi Colleen!! I do remember you. If I remember correctly didnt you take time from TTC to train for a marathon? How did the marathon go?

on the BFP!!! We definitly can understand your fears. Glad you found your way back!!! Lots of

*SamF* · #3 November 23rd, 2010, 06:29 AM

I understand the fears! Lot's of sticky dust!!

lindsey2000k · #4 November 23rd, 2010, 09:19 AM

I think every pregnancy if different. This baby may have taken an extra day or 2 to implant. At 11DPO I tested VERY faint for my daughter I acaully tossed it in the trash and dug it out later just to re look like I am sure we all have done. I went and got a digital test the next morning took it with FMU and it said PREGENANT. That is now my almost 3 year old healthy daughter so you just never know!
I had a Miscarriage before her and then another after. Its no fair because we can never enjoy a pregnancy like we should.

Good luck & I would call my DR ASAP to get blood drawn so they can start watching your numbers.

asunflower · #5 November 23rd, 2010, 09:53 AM

Congrats. Stay positive and know that it is what it is and you have no control over the situation at this point in time so just think it is going to work this time. I understand how you feel, I have had 6 miscarriages and the only thing that gets me through is knowing that I am not in control and that it is what it is. Hopefully you will make it to that 12 week point, have some relief and joy and then you can relax and enjoy the rest of your pregnancy!

ohnicole · #6 November 23rd, 2010, 10:00 AM

Colleen, I have been wondering about you for a while (I used to be Cricket909).

I'm so excited for you!

I can't even imagine how scary it is, but I am so hoping that this is your super sticky bean. I think a faint BFP at 11 dpo is great!!!

MeganMomof5 · #7 November 23rd, 2010, 10:27 AM

I remember you from the TTC board too..Congrats!!!

missy123 · #8 November 23rd, 2010, 11:30 AM

I remember you, Congratulations! Being pregnant after a loss is scary, you can only try your best to enjoy every minute of it.

mafiamom · #9 November 23rd, 2010, 12:35 PM

thanks for the encouragement ladies. as you all know, there is an extra special joy a long with an extra dose of fear that comes with a pregnancy after a loss/losses.

i am going to try to remain positive and take things as they come. As the pP said - "it is what it is".... i can only hope and pray that this baby is meant to come to earth!

Celena · #10 November 23rd, 2010, 01:47 PM

YAY Colleen

I'm so excited

for you.... I stalk you from time to time to see if there's anything new going on with you. Can't say that I wanted to ever see you come back here, but I'm so excited for you to have gotten a BFP. Hang tight hon, can't say to not worry entirely because we all know that's impossible for us ladies here. I do want to say something that resonated with me is to try to enjoy each day that baby bean is with you all the way to birthing your wee Rainbow!

I pray that this is your sticky bean

Happy to know that you've made it!