[SkyBaby]

I had been lurking from time to time, but not posting at all. I decided that ttc had a larger chance of driving me mad than my getting pregnant. DH and I have found ways to spice up things in bed. Make things fun again and not feel so chore-like. I completely quit tracking my cycles, not even paying attention to when AF was due. I have no idea when or even if I'm ovulating. Ya know what? It's not bothering me much at all. DH is keeping tabs on that. lol

I'm staying busy with my wildlife photography and saving up for a new lens. I'm also trying to finally pick a career and go to school so I can get out of Kmart finally. I am sick to death of retail. I hate customer service jobs. I'm not a people person. I'm there for the money and funding my passion of photography and that's it. As soon as I have the equipment I need to professionally shoot aviation and wildlife, I'm outta there.

I'm exploring my ability of the family talent, music. I'm teaching myself alto recorder. It's fun. Simple, straight forward. My Dad plays beautifully, but he's one of those people who can pick up any instrument and just start playing it like he's been doing it all his life. My Dad and I have decided one of these days, we will play a duet at church with my mom's amazing piano playing accompanying us. I'll have to say, I have no where near the ear and raw talent my siblings possess, but I can get along ok.

I have added another critter to my small zoo, a Tarantula, so I've been busy learning all I can about him and his care. He's pretty shy, so I don't see him much, but I hear that's a happy Tarantula when they're not pacing their enclosure constantly. I've always wanted one, but my mom's a borderline arachno-phobe. After showing DH pictures of them, he finally caved. lol

Like I said, I've been pretty busy. Family, work, hobbies, and pets all keep me on my toes. Hopefully my passion will become my work soon. I can say, for the first time in the 1.5 years since our loss, I am in a state of true peace and contentedness. I'm happy. That's the bottom line of all this babbling. My life is good.

If any of you wonderful ladies read all this, I thank you all. It feels great to be back. *hugs everybody*

[tobi4]

Welcome back! Thanks for your wonderful update! I am so glad for you that you have found happiness again. I wish that for all of our ladies. ~hugs~

[Celena]

I've missed you Kira! Made me cry reading your update, my heart is so happy for you that youre at a good place and much happier. Please dont stay gone so long next time hon!

[ohnicole]

Kira, I was just thinking about you. I'm so glad that you're so happy right now

[luvmykids623]

You sound so happy, and I'm so happy for you!

[SkyBaby]

Thanks so much ladies!! It's pretty ironic that after typing all this DH and I got into a mini argument. In my attempt at trying not to obsess with TTC, I got so focused on stuff and material things in an attempt to distract me, that I needed a good reality check. That's why I've been staying so busy. The fact is, I'm having another baby fever flare up, but I'm busy enough that it's not killing me.. yet. lol

I love all you ladies. I'm so glad to be back.