[NsMommy]

Since my loss at about 7 weeks (D&C at 8 weeks) in September, we have been waiting to TTC again. After my 2nd cycle my husband said he wanted to try again for a baby at Christmas. And I said, "Well, why don't we try now so we can have a Christmas present for ourselves?" He, of course, agreed since the trying part benefits both of us .

So now, three weeks and 4 days later, I'm feeling pregnant! I have pregnant boobs and light cramps. I have hinted to him because I can't control myself but I really wanted to surprise him Christmas Day or Christmas Eve. SO I told myself that I would wait to test until next week.

But I caved today and I saw a very very very faint blue line on a Target early pregnancy test. It's so barely visible that I must be nuts, right?

So now I'm all of a sudden nervous. Normally, I would tell my husband, mom, and sisters. But it's SO early. So I'm thinking all kinds of things:
- What if I am imagining everything including the blue line?
- What if it's a chemical pregnancy?
- What if there's something wrong genetically like the last time (suspected but never confirmed by doctor)?
- I took Theraflu and was sucking down cough drops last week because I have either a BAD cold or a flu (without the fever) in denial that I could be pregnant so soon. So now I'm worried I might have done something to cause another miscarriage.
- I feel a little guilty because it seems to have happened so fast and it doesn't happen like that for a lot of people.
- I'm afraid to feel excited!

I know this is all normal stuff and that you all understand.

I've hinted to my husband that I think that I am but I haven't told ANYONE but you guys (total strangers ).

I will test again in a few days or, like I planned, on Christmas Eve/morning.

I just needed to tell SOMEONE and it feels good to let it out.

Thanks for listening .

kikbxr

[yellowbird]

Everything you're thinking is totally normal. I would definitely test with a FRER next week. Good luck!

[missy123]

I would get a pink dye test like Answer or First Response and test again. The blue dye tests tend to give false results.

I understand all of your fears and concerns. We loose our innocence with a loss. (hugs)

[NsMommy]

yellowbird and missy,

Thank you both for responding. I'm new here with very few posts so it's always nice when someone responds .

I got a pack of 3 FRER and I'm going to wait a few more days ... if I can STAND it.

Thanks for the understanding! I wish you both luck!
kikbxr

[Shadeauxe]

Good luck!

I don't think cold medicine causes miscarriages, so you can check that off of your list of worries. I know we're supposed to avoid them once we know, but I hardly think that taking it once when you don't even know yet will do any harm.

[Pame£a]

I'm so sorry for all that you have been through.

I really hope you get your positive hun.

[*SamF*]

Hoping it is a BFP for you too!! And I second (or third) the get a pink dye test!

WE need some Christmas BFP's around here!!

[Brittanie]

I agree, we need some Christmas bfps!! I'm secretly hoping you test sooner rather than later, and get a fabulous result!

And yes, all those worries are very very normal.

[LindseyE117]

I never test with blue dye kits anymore because of so many false faint blue lines. If you did get a faint on the blue though, I would take that FRER today.

Here is sending some good luck towards you and hoping you get a BFP!

[NsMommy]

Brittanie; don't tempt me (not that I need the temptation) .

You guys are so awesome! Thank you!

So, I just found out that my neighbor/new friend who went through a miscarriage 3 weeks before me tested positive yesterday! I have so much hope.

Here are my symptoms (TMI):
Mega cramps but not like period cramps.
Very tender and large breasts with veins.
Hips were aching last night (like my last pregnancy).
No pre-period spotting like I normally get.
I'm so certain... I might just HAVE to test tomorrow morning.