Stupid...I am actually scared to call the doc :( UPDATE

ashj_1218 · #1 January 17th, 2011, 05:00 AM

******UPDATE*******

I finally got up my nerve and called. The test was positive. I have to say I am happy it is positive, at least I have an answer and a line of treatment. The main doc (I talked to my nurse, who is the go-between) is going to call tomorrow, after he goes over a treatment plan. But generally, I have to make an appt with a rhuematologist and with a maternal and fetal medicine doc. If I am pregnant this cycle, I have to call them ASAP (a reason to have a pee-stick addiction!!) and they will get me started on luvenox. I should have a script for progesterone tomorrow (I already had one that I just refilled, but it was from the other doc). I feel like I have an answer and that I am ten pounds lighter...knowing that we likely can have another baby and not just keep losing them. It restores some of my hopes of a big family, given my pregnancy will not be anything more high risk than, say, twins. They just have to monitor the meds carefully and deal with any bleeding pronto (either interally or externally). I am very relieved. Thanks for rooting for me

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Today I have to call my RE and find out the test results for my second blood draw. My first draw turned up positive for an autoimmune disorder. And they had to test again, since recent losses or an illness could cause the test to be positive, falsely.

So...today I have to call and I am so nervous. If they tell me it is positive again, that means I have to schedule some appts and take blood thinners. Which would not be that bad, except the miscarriage rate is higher than average just having the disorder. I can still handle it, since at least I know what is going on. But it makes me sad to think I could still have losses even though we know the problem (I am sure we are all afraid of that).

And if they tell me the re-test is negative, that means we still have no answers and there is very little to look into still

So, I would be back to not knowing what the problem is and possibly losing more babies after getting my hopes up so high.

I think I prefer the test be positive...but I don't get to choose. I think I have the feeling the test will be negative this time. And my hope went out the window (does that make sense?) And I am just rambling because I am not wanting to call and find out. Sigh. Sometimes it is so unfair that some people work so hard for their babies.

That is all...thanks for listening.

Shadeauxe · #2 January 17th, 2011, 06:14 AM

I am not a very good comforter, but I hope all of this become irrelevant because you end up with a viable pregnancy.

.:Shortcake:. · #3 January 17th, 2011, 06:41 AM

Hugs! I've felt the same way time and time before. I wish they would find something wrong and something that is fixable because then at least I have answers as to why I lost my babies. It does suck that even if that is what is wrong that you could still have more losses but at least you would know and would be trying to prevent that by taking the blood thinners. Try to stay positive and let us know what the doctor says.

StaceygirlPa · #4 January 17th, 2011, 07:22 AM

I am sorry you are feeling this way. It is a shame that just a phone call can cause us so much pain. Please know I am thinking of you. Please let us know how your phone call went.

Shadeauxe · #5 January 17th, 2011, 07:23 AM

You could have your husband call, maybe.

AZsnowflake · #6 January 17th, 2011, 07:28 AM

I am so sorry, your feelings are very understandable. We are all here for you no matter the outcome!

MeganMomof5 · #7 January 17th, 2011, 08:51 AM

I very much understand your feelings...I went through the same thing a few months ago and felt the same way you did...I hope you get the answers you want. (((Hugs)))

SillyKitty · #8 January 17th, 2011, 09:13 AM

I totally understand your mixed feelings and nervousness. Did you call yet?

.:Shortcake:. · #9 January 17th, 2011, 01:53 PM

So glad you finally have your answer and it seems pretty easy to treat

ohnicole · #10 January 17th, 2011, 04:27 PM

Ash, I'm so glad you have your answer. Let's both get pregnant right now and be Lovenox buddies!

luvmykids623 · #11 January 17th, 2011, 04:47 PM

I'm so glad you have an answer, and that the treatment is fairly easy.

AZsnowflake · #12 January 17th, 2011, 05:02 PM

I'm glad you have a treatment plan now and feel much better about things!

shanise.robertson · #13 January 17th, 2011, 05:54 PM

glad you have gotten so answers and that you are being so positive makes me feel good.

zkat · #14 January 17th, 2011, 06:38 PM

Hello! I graduated before you joined, but I still can't leave these ladies, even though I am not TTC!

I was on Lovenox for my entire pregnancy and gave birth to my beautiful, healthy rainbow baby on Dec. 7th. The Lovenox is not that bad. I got used to the injections really quick and for me it is a miracle/life safer - literally. I have Protien C/S deficiency and Homo MTHfR A mutation.

Feel free to ask me any questions you may have about my pregnancy or treatments.

Congratulations!

Kat.