[Kary♥RN]

It has come time for me to say goodbye and step down as co-host of the TTCAL board. I joined JM in Jan 2009 (The Sept 09,DDC, than we lost our Heart Beat of our little girl, Hope.) So I joined TTCAL the end of Jan, after that I would loose one more baby while a member here, for a total of three loses. I don't think I would have gotten through those dark days without my TTCAL Ladies! The support, Love, and friendships... I have made here will last a lifetime! I became co-host over a year and half ago. And during that time I conceived my rainbow babies, my two little girls. I can not devote the time needed to give to this wonderful board and it ladies, nor do I think it is fair for me to stay on since I am no longer TTC... (Yet , or maybe not.. time will tell) Celena needs a co-host that will help her out (I Know one of you lovely ladies will step up!) I shouldn't say goodbye.. since TTCAL will ALWAYS be my home. I will stop in and check in on you all! I think of you all everyday and pray one day this board will have to close since you all have graduated and no other woman has to know the pain of loss. I love you all! Come on Show me the BFP's!!!!

For the newbies who I have not gotten to know.. Please don't loose hope! A little back ground on me.. As I said above I had three losses.. one "chemical and two missed miscarriages one needing a D/E. After my third loss I went to an RE, they did testing I was diagnosed with a clotting factor.. MTHFR I am Homozygous for the A1298C, My DH has Multiple sclerosis and his tests showed poor sperm quality. (The RE even went as far as to tell him he didn't know how we had gotten pregnant 3 times.. that how bad his numbers, morphology and motility were). We never finished the testing with he RE.. since we were fighting with the insurance company over my dh tests since they denied his blood work and charged us over 8,600!! So, I called my OB after all the blood work and told him I wanted a "Plan". He brought me in for CD 3 blood work and than for CD 12 u/s.. The u/s showed that I had no follicles big enough that would release an egg. (or an egg that would give me a viable pregnancy) So the next month (Nov 09) I went on Clomid. (Along with u/s on cd 12-13 to check follicle sizes.. at that u/s I was told what day to start progesterone and a baby aspirin. and than I would test 10-14 days after that.. if the hpt was negative I would stop the progesterone and baby aspirin) The first two cycles I did the clomid 5-9cd... the third cycle I did it 3-5 (since that is what the RE said he would do.. (I never told my OB I changed it up )...Half way through the month.. I told my DH what I had done.. going "rouge"... And he confessed to me that he stopped all his MS meds.. (except the shot he gets every other day) So That month we conceived our twins.. Was it the Clomid, changing the days, my dh stopping his meds... Who knows.. But we got our rainbow babies! 22 months of TTC with three losses... I almost gave up so many times....When you feel like giving up think of me! It will happen! Just have hope and faith!

Love you all! xoxoxoxo

Kary

[ashj_1218]

Aw, sorry to see you go. But glad you get to leave on great terms and with two gorgeous rainbow babies. You give me hope that great things happen after the unthinkable. Thank you for being a great host. Take care of those little ladies...as I know you will.

[.:Shortcake:.]

Oh Kary I hate to see you have to do this. You were a wonderful co-host and I am so glad your leaving because of a wonderful reason (your adorable girls). Please stick around even if your not TTC just yet and know that we love you. Thank you so much for all you have done for this board and for me. You have given me hope!

[ohnicole]

Kary, we will all miss you so much (please stick around and update us on those precious little girls ). You have done so much for all the girls on this board- you will not be forgotten! I'm so happy that you finally got your rainbow babies

[MeganMomof5]

I'm sorry to see you go Kary...you were such a great help and support to me when I first joined TTCAL...I'm glad you got your rainbow babies and I hope you keep us updated on everything!

[Jessica121706]

sorry to see you go

[dreamer10]

I hate to see you go, but I understand why. Those beautiful babies need their momma and you need to be there for them. I am so happy for you and your family and hope the best for you!

[mmllhh]

kary, you will be missed. I'm sad to see you go but so happy that you got your rainbow babies. Please pop in and let us know how those beauties are doing.

[tobi4]

Kary! I have tears in my eyes. You have been a wonderful support and will be missed dearly. Your little ones are very lucky.
xo

[SillyKitty]

Kary, good luck with your mothering journey. I didn't get a chance to know you since I'm relatively new, but your story is inspiring. I hope you continue to check in on us!

[Celena]

I can't even see to type, I love you Kary... you know that, I'm so thankful that fate has brought us together otherwise I wouldn't have such a good friend in my life that you are. But selfishly saying this, I wish it wasn't so that you're stepping down. Sorta heart crushing, but you know I understand you were already a busy lady before the girls were born and you're triple busy now.

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I'm tempted to pull out the huge boulder and rope to hold your arse down over here

[missy123]

I suck at this kind of thing so I would just like to say Thank you for everything Kary. Those girls are lucky to have such a great mom and dad!

[kzoo1280]

Thank you for sharing your inspirational story. All the best to you and your family for the years to come.

[TnPhotoMama81]

Kary- Thanks for all you have done for this group and for sharing your story with us.

I am so glad your story has a happy ending! I can understand why you need to step down. I am happy that you will check in from time to time

[okiliz]

Thanks for being co-host .. I'm pretty new here, only having been on about 4 months but I wanted to say thanks and the best of luck to you !!

[JessP]

Kary I am so sorry to see you step down although I can imagine you are super busy . You are a great host thanks for all you have done for everyone myself included.

[klt]

Kary! I'm such an old timer around here that I remember when you joined us ! I always come back to TTCAL, my first JM home. I check up on the ladies, even those that I don't know, so that I can add them to my prayers. After my loss, the ladies of TTCAL were my "lifeline". They were always there for me and they saw me through very hard times. I remember your first posts on this board! I am so happy that you have been blessed with your rainbow babies. And the ladies of this board have been blessed to have you as a co-host. Stay in touch. I'm sure you will. It may not be everyday online. But, if you're like me, it will be every day in your heart.
Take Care!

[*Tracy*]

sorry to see u go thank u for sharing your story it gives me hope

[StaceygirlPa]

Kary, I am sorry to see you go but I totally understand. You have helped this board so much. Thank you for sharing your story. It gives all of us hope to keep trying. Please keep in touch and updating us on your beautiful girls.

[BeccaM]

Kary I am sorry to see you step down as co-host but can fully understand why. You have been a wonderful support for all of us on this board and I wish you nothing but the best. I hope you do stick around thou. We have to have updates on those 2 precious lil girls of yours.