March (previous loss ment)

StaceygirlPa · #1 February 7th, 2011, 03:48 AM

I can't believe on Feb 9th I should be 4 weeks away from giving birth to our little peanut. Instead I sit here with 3 losses total. It is so hard to sit here thinking that I might not be pregrant with our rainbow baby by our due date on March 9th. Sometimes I just want to crawl in corner and cry. I knew it was going to be hard for us to get pregrant. What I didn't know was that it was going to be this hard to get pregrant and to stay pregrant. Sometimes I wonder if I will ever be a able to hold a baby in my arms. I wonder if I will ever be able to be a mom or if dh will ever be a dad.

I am not looking forward to March at all. When I got pregrant and found out we were due in March I was so happy. I knew March was going to be so hard for me since mom passed away on March 22, 2010. With the birth of peanut on March 9th I would have my baby in my arms to help ease the pain of losing my mom.

Thanks for listening ladies. I wish I could crawl in a hole and not come out until after March has passed.

ashj_1218 · #2 February 7th, 2011, 04:43 AM

Anniversaries are always hard. I am coming up on my first one and even though I am pregnant (sorry, I hope that doesn't bother you), I am still feeling sad that I should have a new baby right now, or close to now, and instead I have been on a roller coaster of emotions. And I think it is still hitting hard because I am not far enough along to feel secure in the pregnancy yet, we have not seen a heartbeat yet and therefore, I am always thinking the next day will be the last. MAYBE, you will be pregnant before your due date

Ya never know what your tests will hold this month. I am so sorry this is hard and that you have the added pain of your mom's death to make March harder. Maybe you will have a nice distraction coming up soon.

SillyKitty · #3 February 7th, 2011, 05:04 AM

Anniversaries are always hard, but with the significance of your due date during the same month as the loss of your mom, it is going to be difficult. Hopefully TTCAL will be able to keep your spirits up.

ohnicole · #4 February 7th, 2011, 06:25 AM

I am so sorry, Stacey

EDDs are just rough, and there is no getting around it. Everything you are feeling is totally normal, and the bottom line is that none of this is fair

I hope that your worries are unfounded, and that you and your DH are able to become parents. I have had the same fears, and they are so hard to handle. I also hope that this March, you can make some new, happy memories to help ease the pain of the sad memories.

.:Shortcake:. · #5 February 7th, 2011, 06:56 AM

Hugs! I know that it's so hard and frustrating to sit and watch anniversaries go past and not be pregnant and have had so many losses. I wish I could come give you a hug hun.

missy123 · #6 February 7th, 2011, 07:35 AM

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Originally Posted by ohnicole

I am so sorry, Stacey EDDs are just rough, and there is no getting around it. Everything you are feeling is totally normal, and the bottom line is that none of this is fair

I hope that your worries are unfounded, and that you and your DH are able to become parents. I have had the same fears, and they are so hard to handle. I also hope that this March, you can make some new, happy memories to help ease the pain of the sad memories.

Stacey - I understand your pain honey and I am so sorry... ((Hugs sweetie))

*SamF* · #7 February 7th, 2011, 07:38 AM

Shadeauxe · #8 February 7th, 2011, 07:41 AM

I think about it periodically then block it from my mind. It definitely sucks, no matter how you look at it.

TnPhotoMama81 · #9 February 7th, 2011, 02:25 PM

I am so sorry. I dread the dates too. I had a hard time passing our EDD with our last m/c

*hugs*

I pray that you get a + soon!

MeganMomof5 · #10 February 7th, 2011, 02:34 PM

(((hugs))) I understand...I've gone through so many dates in the last year...I think the days leading up to that date, are worse than the actual dates...I know for me it got a little easier everytime I got past that date too...My due date was March 8th, I would of been 36 weeks tomorrow...It's still hard on me too...I hope you get your BFP soon.

Jessica121706 · #11 February 7th, 2011, 09:48 PM

I'm having the same problems you are already and i wasn't due til april. not quite sure how I am going to get through it. I know the ladies here are here for me and if i need support everyone will be there. So even though im not there yet that is my advice think of us on jm and we can do our best to hold you up

StaceygirlPa · #12 February 8th, 2011, 03:10 AM

Thank you so much for listening ladies. It is just so hard. This cycle here we have done everything I could think of to help catch the eggie. I pray we get a BFP this month and I pray that everyone gets their BFP.