[wishfulgal]

My cousin texted me last night that she is expecting #5 and she is due just a few weeks after my due date with my angel baby. My cousin and I don't see each other much anymore and she doesn't know about my m/c, but we were inseperable growing up...she is only 3 days older than me and we did absolutely everything together. I always thought it would be so fun to be pregnant at the same time as her, and I would have been if I had stayed pregnant

I'm just kind of a mess today.I'm happy for my cousin and she is a great mom to her kids. But I just remember back in high school she was wild and I was the one who stayed home and helped my mom and took care of my little brother. I always loved kids and wanted a bunch of them and here she will be having her 5th kid at age 27 and I have been struggling to conceive my second since before she even gave birth to #4. It just doesn't seem fair. I'm so sick of this. I miss the days when I would hear that someone was expecting and my first thought was, "Oh yay! That's so exciting!" instead of , "Why is it so easy for everyone else and so hard for me?" .....

[Cait&AngelAbove]

I am so sorry that you have to go through this! It is very hard when those close to you get pregnant and you want it so bad.

[*SamF*]

I'm sorry your having a hard time.

[.:Shortcake:.]

Hugs! I know there are so many times I feel like that. I want to scream because it happens to people so undeserving (not saying that's her), people who don't want it and there are woman who would give anything to have a healthy baby. We do understand and don't be hard on yourself, it's normal for you to feel that way.

[missy123]

(((Hugs))) I understand how hard it is. Try to take a few minutes and dream of what it will be like when you are pregnant again and having another baby. Try to focus on the positive, even if it is just for 5 minutes. You deserve a few minutes of happiness.

[Shadeauxe]

I don't have any good advice, so behold the cute hamster......

[TnPhotoMama81]

I understand....you are certainly not alone in your thoughts at all. I am having a very bad day today myself wondering why it is so easy for some and so hard for me and many others here. I am sorry

[Shadeauxe]

The universe is complicated and works in mysterious ways. You'll drive yourself nuts asking yourself why. There is no answer. I know it's easier said than done to just stop asking why, but that is what will take away the sadness.

I do wish you weren't sad and that there was a way to instantly zap it away.

[j&jmom]

I know what you are talking about. I have a cousin who got pg the same time as me. while she went on to have a healthy baby boy, I had a mc. It didn't bother me as much as it could have because we didn't talk much, but now I'll be moving to the same town as her so it'll be harder to avoid seeing her son and having him be a constant reminder of what I loss. I wish it didn't have to be this way for anyone!

[ohnicole]

I am so sorry that you are going through this. It's totally natural to feel sad for what you lost when you hear news of other people's pregnancies, but it does feel awful to be bitter. I have been where you are, and it is just tough. We are here for you