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March 6th, 2011, 11:53 AM
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I've discovered I am NOT a "test early, test often" kinda gal. My little brain can't handle it. So I'm gonna wander off for a couple days, 'cause being on the boards makes me too hyped up to just keep obsessing.

AF is due Monday (12 DPO, for all my cycles since having Drew). If my B6 decided to work this cycle (even though it didn't last cycle), I may have a longer LP this time, and AF might be due Tuesday (13 DPO, or my normal, pre-Drew, 12-day LP). I'm not going to temp for the next couple of days. If AF is going to come, and she hasn't come by the end of the day Tuesday, then surely she'll come Wednesday (14 DPO). One extra little 100mg B6 pill shouldn't give me more than an extra 1-2 days of LP. So my grand plan is to not temp until Wednesday, which is the latest AF should be due, then if my temp is still high, test. If it's low, don't test, just wait for the spotting to start.

No matter what happens, I'll be sure to come back as soon as I have confirmation one way or the other. I just need to take a little mini vay-cay until then.

Lots of love and sticky/baby dust while I'm gone!!! And I'll "see" y'all in a couple of days
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(Thank you Natasha for this beautiful graphic of Andrew, and to the ladies of the Nov 10 PR who help me in carrying on his memory.)


Jan. 2009: Came off years of BCP and started TTC
March 2010: BFP -- finally!
Oct. 22, 2010: Drew is born, but has to stay in the NICU because of cord complications resulting in oxygen deprivation and brain problems =(
Oct. 27, 2010: I held him in my arms while Daddy, Grandma, Great-Uncle and I sang him to sleep =( Hardest thing I've ever done...
June 14, 2011: Drew's baby brother or sister waved hi to us with a BFP!
June 25, 2011: Natural miscarriage... Can we please catch a break here?
Nov. 2011: 100mg Clomid followed by 2mg Estrogen, Ovidrel trigger, and 200mg progesterone suppositories 2x/day 14 days. BFN.
Dec. 2011: 2nd medicated cycle. BFN.
Jan. 2012: Took a month off to breathe...
Feb. 2012: Same regimen of Clomid and other meds, add IUI. 2 eggs and 8.5 million swimmers. BFN.
March 2012: 75 IU Follistim CD 3-11, follie scan CD 8 showed 6 follies likely to mature. Triggered, IUI on CD 14, 4 million swimmers. BFN.
April 2012: 75 IU Follistim CD 3-10. Scan showed 2 mature follies, 2 almost certain to mature, and two not likely but possible. (All 6 evenly and perfectly spaced out between the left and the right.) Triggered, IUI CD 13 with 5 million swimmers. BFN.
May 2012: 75 IU Follistim starting CD 3. Waiting to O. Timed intercourse. Likely 5 follies to mature.




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March 6th, 2011, 11:57 AM
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Take care of yourself Erin! See you soon xox
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March 6th, 2011, 11:58 AM
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We completely understand Erin!! I hope you have a good few days and that you have good news when you come back. I am keeping my fingers crossed for you!
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March 6th, 2011, 12:24 PM
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We understand Erin. I hope you can fine time to relax the next couple of days. I love the way you are looking at things.
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March 6th, 2011, 12:31 PM
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I totally understand. There are some days when I feel like I need a break too.

Thinking about you though and I hope you come back with awesome news
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March 6th, 2011, 12:46 PM
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I am sorry... I added to your hype and I apologize. I will miss you.
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March 6th, 2011, 01:58 PM
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I invited it! I was enjoying it at first, but as of today I've sort of reached my aggravation point. Plus now I know No big, just gonna try and hold off for a couple days.
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(Thank you Natasha for this beautiful graphic of Andrew, and to the ladies of the Nov 10 PR who help me in carrying on his memory.)


Jan. 2009: Came off years of BCP and started TTC
March 2010: BFP -- finally!
Oct. 22, 2010: Drew is born, but has to stay in the NICU because of cord complications resulting in oxygen deprivation and brain problems =(
Oct. 27, 2010: I held him in my arms while Daddy, Grandma, Great-Uncle and I sang him to sleep =( Hardest thing I've ever done...
June 14, 2011: Drew's baby brother or sister waved hi to us with a BFP!
June 25, 2011: Natural miscarriage... Can we please catch a break here?
Nov. 2011: 100mg Clomid followed by 2mg Estrogen, Ovidrel trigger, and 200mg progesterone suppositories 2x/day 14 days. BFN.
Dec. 2011: 2nd medicated cycle. BFN.
Jan. 2012: Took a month off to breathe...
Feb. 2012: Same regimen of Clomid and other meds, add IUI. 2 eggs and 8.5 million swimmers. BFN.
March 2012: 75 IU Follistim CD 3-11, follie scan CD 8 showed 6 follies likely to mature. Triggered, IUI on CD 14, 4 million swimmers. BFN.
April 2012: 75 IU Follistim CD 3-10. Scan showed 2 mature follies, 2 almost certain to mature, and two not likely but possible. (All 6 evenly and perfectly spaced out between the left and the right.) Triggered, IUI CD 13 with 5 million swimmers. BFN.
May 2012: 75 IU Follistim starting CD 3. Waiting to O. Timed intercourse. Likely 5 follies to mature.




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March 6th, 2011, 02:23 PM
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I understand. I know I'm not on here a lot, but I could feel your excitement from your posts. I too got my hopes up this cycle (yet again) so I understand you taking a break. Hang in there hun!
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March 6th, 2011, 04:55 PM
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We all need breaks now and then. I hope you come back to us with some amazing news. We will miss you!
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March 6th, 2011, 05:02 PM
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I completely understand. I drove myself nuts testing from way to early dpo. I took a few days off and then tested and got my bfp. Those few days of not testing were so nice.
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March 6th, 2011, 05:06 PM
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I feel bad too. I was a pusher. I think they should make an after-school special about POAS pushers and I could be the girl hanging out in the dark alley offering pee sticks to TTC girls. At the end of the episode the moral of the story would be... Early and often isn't for everyone.

I am secretly very jealous of girls that wait until AF is late. I wish I was that strong.

Sorry for pushing the pee sticks.
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March 6th, 2011, 05:21 PM
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Please don't be sorry. Even getting the BFNs I was having fun with all of it -- the hype, the excitement, etc. I just know now that the cumulative effect of all the BFNs isn't something I can handle very well. No worries, I'm not over here huddled in a corner in a deep depression or anything Just taking a couple days off.
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With us on earth for five short days, with us in our hearts forever.
(Thank you Natasha for this beautiful graphic of Andrew, and to the ladies of the Nov 10 PR who help me in carrying on his memory.)


Jan. 2009: Came off years of BCP and started TTC
March 2010: BFP -- finally!
Oct. 22, 2010: Drew is born, but has to stay in the NICU because of cord complications resulting in oxygen deprivation and brain problems =(
Oct. 27, 2010: I held him in my arms while Daddy, Grandma, Great-Uncle and I sang him to sleep =( Hardest thing I've ever done...
June 14, 2011: Drew's baby brother or sister waved hi to us with a BFP!
June 25, 2011: Natural miscarriage... Can we please catch a break here?
Nov. 2011: 100mg Clomid followed by 2mg Estrogen, Ovidrel trigger, and 200mg progesterone suppositories 2x/day 14 days. BFN.
Dec. 2011: 2nd medicated cycle. BFN.
Jan. 2012: Took a month off to breathe...
Feb. 2012: Same regimen of Clomid and other meds, add IUI. 2 eggs and 8.5 million swimmers. BFN.
March 2012: 75 IU Follistim CD 3-11, follie scan CD 8 showed 6 follies likely to mature. Triggered, IUI on CD 14, 4 million swimmers. BFN.
April 2012: 75 IU Follistim CD 3-10. Scan showed 2 mature follies, 2 almost certain to mature, and two not likely but possible. (All 6 evenly and perfectly spaced out between the left and the right.) Triggered, IUI CD 13 with 5 million swimmers. BFN.
May 2012: 75 IU Follistim starting CD 3. Waiting to O. Timed intercourse. Likely 5 follies to mature.




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March 6th, 2011, 06:44 PM
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I miss you already.
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March 6th, 2011, 08:39 PM
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Oh we will miss you Erin!!! I will make sure to check in when I get back from Jamaica!!!! Hope I will see a bfp from you
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March 7th, 2011, 06:46 AM
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Take your much needed break!! I understand I am trying to do the same thing. We look forward to you coming back when your ready!!
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March 7th, 2011, 06:50 AM
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still keeping all crossables crossed for you! And understand the needing a break.
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March 7th, 2011, 10:16 AM
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Just wanted to stop back in to say I have no willpower. I temp'd this morning and it's still higher than I would expect it to be, especially if I'm expecting AF today. But I really don't feel like this is my cycle. I feel out. And I know, I know, the high temp and such is a good sign... But I feel out. Because I caved and took my temp, and because it was high, I caved and took a test, and it was a BFN.

I woke up at about 2:30 this morning for no apparent reason and tested out of curiosity and it was 97.97 -- still above the coverline, but substantially below my recent temps. It's what I would expect my temp to look like if AF were coming the next day. So I went back to sleep, tested 3 hours later at my normal time, and got 98.47, which is a teeny bit lower than the surrounding temps, but not enough to make me raise an eyebrow. I used the time from 5:30 since that's my normal time, and since after the 97.97 I didn't get up or move around or even stay awake -- I drifted right back to sleep. And my sleep is almost always disturbed a little, so I feel confident that I wouldn't have raised my temp half a degree, that wouldn't go down in 3 hours, just by temping. Sometimes I get up and pee around 3 and even that doesn't do anything.

Just my morning report. I'm still gonna try and stay away today 'cause if I sit here and stare at the computer all day I'll just obsess about whether or not I'm pregnant, which I don't think I am. I just think the B6 is working for me. AF should show probably tomorrow or the next day. Yay for increasing my LP!
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(Thank you Natasha for this beautiful graphic of Andrew, and to the ladies of the Nov 10 PR who help me in carrying on his memory.)


Jan. 2009: Came off years of BCP and started TTC
March 2010: BFP -- finally!
Oct. 22, 2010: Drew is born, but has to stay in the NICU because of cord complications resulting in oxygen deprivation and brain problems =(
Oct. 27, 2010: I held him in my arms while Daddy, Grandma, Great-Uncle and I sang him to sleep =( Hardest thing I've ever done...
June 14, 2011: Drew's baby brother or sister waved hi to us with a BFP!
June 25, 2011: Natural miscarriage... Can we please catch a break here?
Nov. 2011: 100mg Clomid followed by 2mg Estrogen, Ovidrel trigger, and 200mg progesterone suppositories 2x/day 14 days. BFN.
Dec. 2011: 2nd medicated cycle. BFN.
Jan. 2012: Took a month off to breathe...
Feb. 2012: Same regimen of Clomid and other meds, add IUI. 2 eggs and 8.5 million swimmers. BFN.
March 2012: 75 IU Follistim CD 3-11, follie scan CD 8 showed 6 follies likely to mature. Triggered, IUI on CD 14, 4 million swimmers. BFN.
April 2012: 75 IU Follistim CD 3-10. Scan showed 2 mature follies, 2 almost certain to mature, and two not likely but possible. (All 6 evenly and perfectly spaced out between the left and the right.) Triggered, IUI CD 13 with 5 million swimmers. BFN.
May 2012: 75 IU Follistim starting CD 3. Waiting to O. Timed intercourse. Likely 5 follies to mature.




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March 7th, 2011, 12:48 PM
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well I'm still holding out hope! But at a minimum glad the B6 is doing it's job!!!
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March 7th, 2011, 12:50 PM
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I am sorry you haven't gotten your BFP yet Your chart still looks very good. It is very hard to start feeling let down though. I wish I knew what to say! You tried soooo hard this cycle! *hugs*
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March 7th, 2011, 01:59 PM
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I am sorry to hear you haven't gotten a BFP. That is wonderful the B6 is working. I am taking B6 too this cycle. I hope you still get a BFP though!!
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