so frustrated....(probable m/c mentioned) (updated..possible pg mentioned) (pics!)

Tara_Rose · #1 March 15th, 2011, 09:46 PM

well this evening around 8pm i had a bit of very light spotting which everyone said oh don't worry about...that's normal..

Now at 1:30am it's a bit more red and i know what that means is coming next...my stupid af making an early miscarriage again

I'm so #@$!ing frustrated. Why the heck even give me a bfp and then do this crap? My bf isn't going to understand why i'm going to be so upset tommorow and i'm gonna want to punch him.

my stupid af isn't even due for two more days.

I just want to go outside and throw rocks and scream. I don't think the neighbours would appreciate that though.

SkyBaby · #2 March 15th, 2011, 10:00 PM

I really hope this is your sticky bean! Tell your man he needs to be more understanding, even if he isn't feeling anything emotionally.

Tara_Rose · #3 March 15th, 2011, 11:25 PM

thanks i hope it is too but at this point i'm not counting on it.

Seems to have settled down now but my cramping is worse so i'm trying to just relax and sleep, which is pretty much impossible at this point.

TnPhotoMama81 · #4 March 15th, 2011, 11:32 PM

I am so sorry. I hope you are not m/c....Praying it goes away for you and things are alright

Your bf def. needs to be more understanding. It is a hard thing for us to go through! So many different emotions

Banned-elly03 · #5 March 16th, 2011, 12:11 AM

*sticky dust*
((hugs)))

CAMPMOMMYAMY · #6 March 16th, 2011, 05:31 AM

I hope the baby sticks for you! I haven't seen the previous posts-did you get a BFP at home or at the doctor? Can you go and see the doctor for betas to get some peace of mind?

pepper73 · #7 March 16th, 2011, 05:54 AM

I hope everything is ok and that the bleeding has stopped completely! How are you feeling this morning? My fingers are crossed for you!!

Tara_Rose · #8 March 16th, 2011, 06:27 AM

ok there is a bunch of tmi coming up here.....

at 7:30 i checked again and it was back to brown, there was only that speck of red i the middle of the night....more like a creamy beige not even really brown.

at 10 am i woke up and it's still ust the creamy beige.

It's not even on my panties or anything, i'm just obsessed with checking my cp and that's where i found the evil red. (it's still really high, feels closed, although slightly harder than it's been for the last bit)

i don't know what is going on. i peed on another stick and it looks the same as the one i peed on yesterday. last time i had an early m/c i started to bleeed within a couple hours of the spotting. my boobs are still sore. i still am nauseated. i think i'l just relax over the nxt couple days and see what happens. My af is not due til friday so maybe it's just very slowly starting......or maybee it's implantation blood lately making it's way out?

God i hope it still has a chance to stick.

And my bf is awesome, he will be very supportive of me, i was just ticked off last night, and it's just impossible for him to be totally empathetic because obviously he'll never feel a baby start to grow inside of him.

*SamF* · #9 March 16th, 2011, 06:42 AM

All crossables crossed and tones of thoughts and prayers that this is your sticky bean!!!

~Tanya~ · #10 March 16th, 2011, 07:39 AM

I am praying that it isn't a m/c...

I had several bleeding episodes (at I think about 9 & 12 weeks) with bright red blood that came in a gush last pregnancy - I thought for SURE it was over, but everything was fine with LO.

.:Shortcake:. · #11 March 16th, 2011, 07:42 AM

missy123 · #12 March 16th, 2011, 08:44 AM

I am so sorry you are going through all of this stress. I hope this is your sticky bean!

Campmommy was right - have you seen your doctor?

SkyBaby · #13 March 16th, 2011, 09:09 AM

I'm still praying for you! I think the overall lack of red is a great sign. Stick bean, stick!

Cait&AngelAbove · #14 March 16th, 2011, 10:12 AM

You are in my thoughts and prayers! Stick bean stick!!

JessP · #15 March 16th, 2011, 10:30 AM

If you can't get in to see your dr I would go to the ER. At least they will do a blood draw and get you started. Then follow up with the dr so they can know what is going on. Document everything because some dr's won't do testing without documented m/c. I know that sucks. I really hope it was just implantation and you have a wonderful sticky bean there.

Tara_Rose · #16 March 16th, 2011, 11:53 AM

thank you all for your hope and kind words. situation is stilll the same, no more red came just beige stuff. I haven't lost total hope yet, still just resting and relaxing and seeing what is to come next.

I wondered too if it was implantation, but i've already been getting bfps, so can the implantation blood take like 4 days to come out?

I know I maybe should go to the ER but after doing this just last month I really don't want to spend an entire day at the ER being poked by many things again...that was so exhausting, especially if there really isn't anything they can do for me anyway. I've decided if more red shows up i'll probably go, if it does not i've got to call to make my first appointment anyway and I will probably get in on Monday or Tuesday.

ETA: and yes i have been documenting EVERYTHING since ovulation day, so i'll take my little book with me if i go...it really came in handy last time.

missy123 · #17 March 16th, 2011, 11:56 AM

I would suggest you try not to poke yourself any more as well. You could be causing some irritation. Keep us updated.

Tara_Rose · #18 March 16th, 2011, 11:59 AM

Yes Missy, lol i have simmered down on the poking...good suggestion thank you

missy123 · #19 March 16th, 2011, 12:05 PM

Good honey! That should be your slogan "no more poking". Rest as much as possible and lets pray for good things.

emsketch · #20 March 16th, 2011, 02:28 PM

I am glad that things seem to have calmed down for you. I do not blame you one bit for not wanting to spend the day in the ER. Can you call the doc and have them order Betas, even if you cannot get into the office? I know most doc's offices will, especially if you keep bugging them. The one thing that I have learned after working in a hospital for years is that usually docs will do anything to quiet a patient that keeps bugging them. Maybe it is time to be that patient!