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Originally Posted by StaceygirlPa
I said good bye to pumpkin yesterday. Now I am where I just want it to end. Which may sound mean because I loved pumpkin so much and wanted pumpkin so bad.
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No does not sound mean at all.
I am in the same place you are. After I passed the baby I almost felt very good in a way it was finally over after all that waiting.
Wednesday I was freaking out because i had just had enough I called my mom crying that I just want it to be over the planning my life around when the bleeding might start was getting to me. My legs where they attach to my body are raw from wearing pads for almost a month now with the rubbing when I walk. I finaly have this peace over me. Dont get me wrong it hurts and it hurts bad but I feel like now I can move on.
I am just like you when TTC again... no numbers will make me feel safe, not even seeing the heartbeat will make me feel safe. This was my first loss where I saw the heart beat and 3 weeks later is was gone.