[acchickpea]

I'll be honest to say that this board and forum has helped me out in so many ways... Topics that my friends can't connect with... I just needed to vent and I felt weird to tell them. How sad is that! I feel like you ladies have been through it and can provide that support that I need without judging me of my feelings.... I want to Thank You all so very much!
So I had a loss a little over two weeks now and am slowly getting back to the swing of things... I want to try on my next cycle but my doctor suggest trying three month from the lose for other reason then phisically.... I guess to have time to accept the miscarriage????
Anyways I had dinner at the in-laws house and my SIL and BIL just dropped the bomb that they were expecting!!!! She is about 6month along... still too early to tell... I would have bee 13 months....
My stomach just fell to the ground but I was truly excited for them.... I just have this jealous pit in my stomach. I'm like a big yo-yo and my emotions are all over the place...
They met for about two weeks, She lived in Australia so you knew little about him when they got married not even two years, they fight all the time, my DH and I are like the referee to them, they live with my DH parents, not very well established.... (I'm sorry but I am really throwing them under the bus)... I guess I'm bitter that I lost my Bean....
What is happening to me... I was never so angry..... I mean it took me so long for this and it disappears so fast.. just to be squashed with news that they are expecting and not even trying (So they say...) It's a big fat stab in my heart.....

[*SamF*]

It is very normal to feel this way!! It is so frustrating to hear people announce pregnancy's especially those who we don't think deserve it. (hell, even those who we do think deserve it, it's still hard)

[~Tanya~]

[lindsey2000k]

I am sorry.

About the waiting my DR told me no reason to wait I can TTC as soon as I feel ready. Well except this time he wants to run more blood tests once my HCG is Zero.
I think if you are ready to just go ahead and do it if it feels right. As long as there is no medical reason.

[acchickpea]

Originally Posted by lindsey2000k

I am sorry.

About the waiting my DR told me no reason to wait I can TTC as soon as I feel ready. Well except this time he wants to run more blood tests once my HCG is Zero.
I think if you are ready to just go ahead and do it if it feels right. As long as there is no medical reason.

I actually have to get my blood tested today to make sure if my levels dropped to zero. Hope it does... I am ready... I hope my body is....

[.:Shortcake:.]

I am sorry your going through this. It is frustrating seeing others have/get what we ourselves want so badly. You shouldn't feel guilty for feeling this way because it's normal.

[KeepingFaith]

It is so normal and understandable to feel this way. Since my loss I have found several people are expecting it and hurts everytime. Most recently DH's 19 year old cousin "accidentally" is 12 weeks pregnant and it makes me so mad. This 19 year old girl with no job and living at home gets to be blessed, but not any of us! Ugh

[JessP]

I am so sorry. That is frustrating and totally normal to feel that way. I hope you can try again soon.

[acchickpea]

I just hate feeling sooooo angry.... I feel guilty for feeling angry,jealous.... I should be sooo excited for them and want to help but it's just so hard.....

[Mom2be2011xo]

I wish you all the best in your future adventures in becoming parents, the book that helped me threw my pregnancy losses. I would like to share it with everyone I can.. screaming it from the rooftops.. it has helped me so much and I hope it finds comfort with someone else..

Book Title- After Miscarriage, Medical facts and emotional supprt for pregnancy loss
Author- Krissi Danielsson..

Sending lots of sticky baby dust to you all!!

[TnPhotoMama81]

I am sorry It is definitely normal to feel bitter about a loss. I feel bitter quite a lot!

When do you get your blood work results?

[emsketch]

It is perfectly normal to feel the way you are feeling. You can be happy for them and still be a little resentful. It is human nature.

As for waiting 3 weeks. My OB office told me that too. I asked them what hte reasoning behind that time frame was and I was told "It makes dating things easier." So I laughed at them, told them that was a stupid reason and that I would not be waiting.

[acchickpea]

Originally Posted by TnPhotoMama81

I am sorry It is definitely normal to feel bitter about a loss. I feel bitter quite a lot!

When do you get your blood work results?

I just got the blood work results.... So close but not at zero... 19! argh...

[Kary♥RN]

hugs... I have been a member of this board for over 2 years.... your feelings are sooo NORMAL! I had three losses, one of my losses I was 3 wks ahead of my SIL.. i was so bitter, I was angry... How could I loose my little girl and they weren't even supposed to be trying (it took them one cycle) And they got thier little girl. So when ever I look at her, I know what my little girl would have been doing. With each loss I became a colder and harder person. It even got to the point my DH didn't want to try because of how I had become... I didn't go out, (since when you go out you see babies, and pregnant people, and people yelling at thier children... ) I was such a debbie downer.... It is so hard... but please don't loose hope. Just know we are here for you, HUGS...

[acchickpea]

Originally Posted by Kary♥RN

I didn't go out, (since when you go out you see babies, and pregnant people, and people yelling at thier children... ) I was such a debbie downer.... It is so hard... but please don't loose hope. Just know we are here for you, HUGS...

I feel the same... Everything is effecting me and I try to fight it off... On the outside I'm bubbly and then inside I'm just rotting.... You ladies know how I truly feel... and I'm thankful to be able to blurt out my feelings.... My friend recently had her baby.. She actually delivered three days after I miscarried... I didn't go visit her at the hospital because it was too much.. plus she didn't know I miscarried.... She wants me to visit her before she goes back to work. How I'm going to react I have no idea... But I'm going to gather myself and see her and her precious baby.... (BTW.. she got pregnant by accident as well.)

[oregongirl]

I'm sorry you're struggling, I TOTALLY understand. Even though it's normall to feel this way, it doesn't make it any easier.

[SkyBaby]

I'm so sorry you're going through this.. It's so normal! I felt the same way! I fully understand. You WILL have your rainbow baby. Don't give up, sweetie. We're all here for you.

[Celena]

You know we've all been in very similar situations.... we know your pain!

Many people around me got pregnant and all said they weren't trying! Let's see my little SIL (and she gave birth the day DH & I lost our first LO together) A friend of mine since high school and they never wanted anymore children... up my BIL's girlfriend and they weren't trying. And couple handfuls of other people... a friend of mine who her n her dh were trying, but struggled and they I was truly happy for.

I can't say I was excited for most of these people because unfortunately I was still struggling with my emotions and grief that I was blinded by it to anything else other than sadness and anger. Being that I've come a long way and am very well healed emotionally, I can be very excited and happy for others... I can smile and coo at little babies with no sort of negative feelings.

You'll get there as well honey, it takes time.. give yourself a break and avoid them if you have to so you don't have to get upset.