[CAMPMOMMYAMY]

Still early (8dpo) but mild cramping started today and I am bloated like a whale. I usually don't bloat until 1 to 2 days before AF and AF is due on Saturday/Sunday if my 24-25 day cycle of the past 2-3 months is correct. Of course I'm reading way into it and I tested and **maybe** see a faint BFP start, but I'm feeling so pessimistic right now when I should start getting excited.

I feel somewhat confident I can get pregnant but it's keeping the baby that worries me. Like how can I get so excited about a BFP when I may end up losing the baby again? Why should I tell anyone, even hubby, knowing that I have such a big chance of losing another baby? I know I know! I'm horrible! I try to get rid of the thoughts but it's so hard. Especially when the docs can't find a clear connection between my first two losses and I didn't see a doctor after my chemical. Am I just a witch that I can't get super positive? I'm sure you hear vents like this all the time, but just had to get mine out.

[ohnicole]

I know it's a couple days later... have you tested any more? Your symptoms sound promising! It is hard to get excited after a loss, but it is all part of the journey

[.:Shortcake:.]

I agree with Nicole. It is very hard to try to get excited when the possibility is there. I myself have had 8 losses so for me I won't believe until I'm holding my baby but I *try* to be excited and as optimistic as possible each pregnancy.

[Shadeauxe]

It certainly does not make you a horrible person. Trust me, if my mind had an audio track, people would think I was pure evil.

Everything is a matter of perspective. Try to find a different perspective that puts a positive spin on it. That's the best advice I can give.

[Erin84]

I feel bad that none of us noticed this until we did. Are you still around? Please update us if you are!