What Is Going On With Me? Updated

LindseyE117 · #1 March 26th, 2011, 09:04 PM

Ok, so the only reason I put possible pregnancy mentioned in the title is because I still have not had AF, but I am not pregnant according to HPT's, or at least I have no idea what is going on with my body. I decided to save people though from my possible freak out ranting though.

So now I am coming up on 3 days late with no AF showing. I have swollen boobs, heartbearn, and I have no idea what is going on with my body. First of all let me say that I am NEVER late with AF. NEVER. So this is new to me and this is also why I am freaking out. But here is the kicker, I have been testing since 7 DPO with BFN's.

I had some evaps on the Answers, so I have been using FRER since the day before missing AF.

Anyway, I told myself if I wake up to no AF this morning, that I was going go and get me another test to make sure. Sure enough, no AF this morning so I got a pack of 2 FRER. I screwed up the first one because I did not have enough pee (even though I felt like I had to bad), so I botched the 1st test. I guzzled water and then took the 2nd test about 20 minutes later. BFN.

Let me just say to those who do not know my story. It will be 3 years in April that my DH and I have been TTC. We finally got pregnant last October only to lose the baby. It has been devestating on us both and something we are just now learning to talk about openly. I will say though that I still hurt and get moments of rage and upset over the whole matter, but we are slowly getting better.

With that said, I had a meltdown. I went into full hurt and anger mode for my body toying with my emotions and I ripped the test to shreds in a fit of rage. I then slumped over on the bathroom floor and balled my eyes out for a good 10 minutes. It is now the end of the day, coming up on the 3rd day with no AF.

We just moved to another state and had issues with our insurance. It kicks in for sick visits on the 15th, but I just found out well checks are on the 1st. So I cannot see a doctor until then. I just want answers with what is going on with me!!! It should have been positive right if I was preggers?!?!?

Sorry for going all out on this, but I just need someone other than my hubby to talk to!

**UPDATED**

So I am sorry for posting so late. I have not had the best day today. I am seriously hurting over everything again. But TMI alert... I started passing brown blood this morning and then I have been bleeding ever since. I am always, and I mean ALWAYS on schedule with my cycle. I usually O around the same day every cycle and I have your "perfect" 28 day cycle. This whole thing is weird to me and of course I am once again hurting over everything. I hate my body right now for giving me false hope.

I used to chart my cycle, but I have not been doing it since my miscarriage last October. But other than that, my periods have always been spot on like normal. So this is weird and strange for me. My husband thinks that I might have had a chemical because of how huge my breasts swelled, but I seriously doubt that. I would have registered someone on a test.

Anyway, thanks ladies for everything. I am going to curl up in a corner and just mope away.

Jessica121706 · #2 March 26th, 2011, 09:50 PM

How many dpo are you? I've seen it take awhile for some girls to get their bfp because they o late in their cycle. I really hope you can get some answers soon. On a side note maybe call a dr and see if they can fit you in on the 1st, if af does show you could always cancel

Erin84 · #3 March 26th, 2011, 10:11 PM

Ditto Jessica about Oing late in your cycle. I don't want to get your hopes up too high, but I'm reading this a certain way and just want to share my interpretation. If a little bean implanted very late, you may not be able to get a correct reading on a pregnancy test until several days after you're late. Also, guzzling water and peeing again 20 mins later won't give an accurate reading because if there is HCG floating around in there the water would dilute it out. It would be like peeing in a cup, then adding a ton-ton-ton of water to it, then expecting an accurate reading. Still keeping my hopes up for you.

ohnicole · #4 March 27th, 2011, 06:18 AM

I agree with the other girls. You could have ovulated later than usual, making AF late, but also giving you a chance to be pregnant. To get an accurate result on a HPT, don't drink or pee for as long as you can (try to make it to 4 hours) before you take the test. I really hope you are preggo

.:Shortcake:. · #5 March 27th, 2011, 06:33 AM

I agree with the other ladies. I'm sorry it's so frustrating. HUGS!

pepper73 · #6 March 27th, 2011, 06:59 AM

How frustrating! I'm sorry you're going through all of this. I agree with the others. Have you been charting your cycle with temps or OPKs to see exactly when you ovulated?

luvmykids623 · #7 March 27th, 2011, 07:19 AM

I agree with the others. I'm so sorry you're going through this.

TnPhotoMama81 · #8 March 27th, 2011, 11:26 AM

Agree with everyone else! I am sorry

It sucks not knowing. I hope you get your BFP this cycle

.:Shortcake:. · #9 March 27th, 2011, 11:31 AM

Just thought of this but do you have a walk-in clinic where you live or a Planned Parenthood? Around here the Planned Parenthood you can walk in without insurance around $5. I hate being in limbo so I know how you feel.

joyguide · #10 March 27th, 2011, 03:14 PM

I agree with the other ladies as well. You probably ovulated late and/or implanted late...and your urine this morning may have been very diluted. Your symptoms sound promising though.

Since your insurance won't kick in until Friday, I also agree with the planned parenthood optiion , or see if there are any donation based county clinics nearby that could either do an hcg draw for you or order one. And even without insurance, most doctors offices will bill you for a level 1 visit which is the cheapest, if you state you're self pay. Or they may have a sliding scale so it's a reasonable cost.

Keep us posted!

LindseyE117 · #11 March 27th, 2011, 06:50 PM

Updated in first post.

KeepingFaith · #12 March 27th, 2011, 06:57 PM

I am so sorry, my body did the same thing to me last month and it was torture. I ended up getting AF 10 days late! I was testing like crazy, BFN's of course, but I still got my hopes up. It's an awful feeling when AF finally shows, but I am over it now and ready for this cycle! Keep your head up, at least now you can focus on your cycle and stop stressing ((hugs))

LindseyE117 · #13 March 27th, 2011, 07:10 PM

Yeah I am just glad that I know something now. I am hurting bad again though. Another month, another nothing as far as pregnancy goes. Out of 3 years, 1 pregnancy and 1 loss. No explanation why other than lower than normal sperm count for hubby. Still specialist said that it shouldn't affect us as he still has plenty to get us pregnant. I am just hurting again....

StaceygirlPa · #14 March 28th, 2011, 03:07 AM

I am sorry you are going through all of this. It's hard when our bodies don't want to work right.

.:Shortcake:. · #15 March 28th, 2011, 03:31 AM

Hugs! After a loss sometimes it takes our bodies awhile to get back to normal and the waiting for that sucks. I would suggest using OPK's or charting the next cycle just to give you an idea what your cycle is doing.

LindseyE117 · #16 March 28th, 2011, 04:04 AM

Yeah I told my husband that this cycle I am going to use OPKs. I am ready for this pregnancy already.

pepper73 · #17 March 28th, 2011, 06:07 AM

I'm sorry things are so out of whack for you. Hopefully they get back on track this cycle!

missy123 · #18 March 28th, 2011, 06:20 AM

Since your hubby has lower sperm counts have you thought of doing IUI? I am sorry your AF was late, it may have been from the stress of moving or a small cyst. ((hugs))