3 years to the day today....

Celena · #1 April 1st, 2011, 07:36 AM

DH and I started to TTC... and in those 3 years had 4 painful losses and a couple chemical pregnancies. I lost my left tube and my right has narrowing. There's no explination for any of my losses and here we still sit without the babies we've been trying for. It's somewhat heartbreaking.

Also, 16dpo and BFN no AF. Screwed things up with progesterone I'm guessing.

I'm not depressed, but just a little blue. Going to get DH to take me out to breakfast.

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Let me correct that, only one of our losses has an explaination.... it was ectopic.

TnPhotoMama81 · #2 April 1st, 2011, 07:45 AM

I am so sorry you guys have been through so much with practically no answers

I pray this is your year for a rainbow baby! We love you!

JessP · #3 April 1st, 2011, 07:45 AM

I am so sorry hunny. I pray 2011 brings you your rainbow baby. And just so you know I am

I just hate that you have been here so long ikwim.

StaceygirlPa · #4 April 1st, 2011, 08:20 AM

I hope this is your year to get your rainbow baby. You have been through so much the last three years.

Shadeauxe · #5 April 1st, 2011, 08:51 AM

I don't know what to say other than I am sorry you aren't able to have what you want. Everyone deserves to be happy.

momof6lopez · #6 April 1st, 2011, 09:01 AM

Celena, just want you to know that Im thinking about you too. No pitty from me, but true heart ache that your sitting here still empty. Praying that 2012 your holding a beautiful little part of you and dh in your arms and all of this will seem like a distant memory........

Cait&AngelAbove · #7 April 1st, 2011, 09:47 AM

I am so sorry Celena!!

*SamF* · #8 April 1st, 2011, 11:09 AM

Hugs Celena! I hope that this year brings you your so deserved rainbow baby!

Celena · #9 April 1st, 2011, 12:41 PM

I think a couple things that tick me off about it....

1) is there's no reason for it at least that we know of. Never thought we would be one of those couples that it would take a while.

2) While it's easy for some to say certain things when they've not experienced themselves nor coming from the same perspective... unfortunately there's allot of things I've heard thru these times where I've just had to insert my better judgement and keep my mouth shut. Think we all have our stories of this.

Honestly for about a year and a half there I was being treated with a ton of different medications because of the new diagnosis of FM (fibromyalgia) and well I wasn't stressing not getting pregnant during that time because some of the meds.

But in the last 21 months(?) since about our first loss together July 30th, 2009 I certainly thought we'd of had a baby in our arms by now. I know for some it just takes longer especially with challenges. So with my one tube gone, one narrowed it just might be a tad longer than others. So we're just going to keep going...

I do appreciate the kind words ladies, thanks

momof6lopez · #10 April 1st, 2011, 01:54 PM

Celena, my sister had no known reason for her loss's and over 10yrs to conceive her daughter.....she also lost her tube in an ectopic before her dd was conceived. Then went on to try one more time when her dd was 5yrs old. Conceived on the first month of trying with her one tube. There was no ryme or reason for it to take that long, she had two children previous to her 10yrs of trying and was still very young. Dr. had just chalked it up to bad luck. She did not even take progesterone with her last baby.

Im certain you will hold your baby, and soon. Just keep up your wonderful outlook and know that your not alone in this journey. And Im sorry for all the negative feed back you have gotten over the years......some people will never understand what your going through, even though it seems so simple to them. I dont even know really all of the emotions your going through, as I can only relate to the loss part of what you have gone through. But I do know it has to be painful and that pain I can relate to.

.:Shortcake:. · #11 April 1st, 2011, 02:09 PM

Celena I love you and I'm holding out hope for you. I hope that in 2012 you get to hold your Rainbow baby. I hate that you have been trying for so long. You deserve to be happy.

missy123 · #12 April 1st, 2011, 02:39 PM

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Originally Posted by momof5lopez

Im certain you will hold your baby, and soon. Just keep up your wonderful outlook and know that your not alone in this journey. And Im sorry for all the negative feed back you have gotten over the years......some people will never understand what your going through, even though it seems so simple to them. I dont even know really all of the emotions your going through, as I can only relate to the loss part of what you have gone through. But I do know it has to be painful and that pain I can relate to.

Ditto!

luvmykids623 · #13 April 1st, 2011, 02:41 PM

I'm so sorry you've gone through all this Celena. I pray that you get a bfp with your rainbow baby soon. You so deserve to be happy!

Celena · #14 April 3rd, 2011, 04:48 PM

Man I don't know what I'd do without y'all...

I'm sorry that I've been distant for so long here, used to be on top of everyone and everything... time has taken a toll on me.

allot of days I'm good, rather ok, but I think lately creeping up on 3 years then the day of and after it's kinda opened up those wounds again. I pray to God it is soon that we're truly blessed with a healthy baby, healthy pregnancy and healthy birthing and life. Can't wait to share this with my soulmate...

I know everything happens in God's time and God is in control... perhaps needing and finally getting this MRI is all a part of HIS plan, because if I was pregnant there's no way I could have gotten it done!

I know, keep hope alive.....

it's just hard sometimes. Y'all know that

(btw, ladies who are preggers... uh hem, Lori, uh hem, Missy... where's your siggy???!!! )

.:Shortcake:. · #15 April 3rd, 2011, 05:20 PM

Celena it is hard to be positive when you have been trying for so long but remember why you pushed on this long. I'm right here with you and we are going to graduate this place together. I'm going to help lift you up when you feel down and celebrate in your joys with you. I love you lady!

Celena · #16 April 3rd, 2011, 10:18 PM

Love you too sweetie, I'm going to be more supportive and kick Debbie's downed butt to the curb soon I promise lol

.:Shortcake:. · #17 April 4th, 2011, 03:09 AM

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Originally Posted by Celena

Love you too sweetie, I'm going to be more supportive and kick Debbie's downed butt to the curb soon I promise lol

We will help you kick her away

But always remember we are here for you!

StaceygirlPa · #18 April 4th, 2011, 03:43 AM

Thinking of you Celena. I think 2012 will be the year you will be holding your baby in your arms.

momof6lopez · #19 April 4th, 2011, 09:55 AM

Celena, I felt that way in 2009...after two losses, I decided to get my nipples done, remember? If I had of gotten pg, Id still be nipple-less, lol!! I just needed to do something for me at that time, get some of my health issues dealt with and make myself feel like a woman again. (I had no nipples after my double mastecomy) It helped my eggo and gave me a fresh new feeling......shortly after, I conceived again, lost that one, but went on to conceive Mia just 6 months after my nipple surgery! Hopefully this MRI will put your mind at ease and you will feel like your ready to concure the world again! I will be always be here for you....ALWAYS!