[okiliz]

Hey guys,
So I have not been on much... I had to take some time off because it has just been really rough over here .. My last IUI in January did not work and then I decided to call off the one in Febuary mid cycle because the doctor messed up the meds and there was very little chance of it working because of that plus we were using frozen sperm.. so I was like we need to save it for better chances . I am overweight.. Not morbidly obease but the drs here were blaming my miscarriage on my weight which my other dr said was BS but I guess I felt guilty about it so I was like I'll just take some time off .. like 3 months and try to lose some weight, get healthy before we try again...then try one more time before we PCS back to North carolina... We were supposed to leave Japan and go back to the United states anyway , so I could start over with new Doctors and they could do the tests they did not do here like the HSG and so on... It would be good, great even..... We got our orders.. all was well in Lizzy's world..... I had been depressed since I lost the twins, so I got on wellbutrin and my doctor raised my topamax for my migranes .. he said there had been studies that showed weight loss with the two .. and it is working.. I have lost 15.5 pounds so far :-) YAY!!! So I kind of got a very peaceful or as peaceful as I could sense about TTC.. I know it will happen for us.. I still feel that way.. just.. I thought I had more time...

Well he was on exercise, he came home and like two weeks later , the disaster hit Japan( where we are stationed, but it did not touch us) So because of his job and what he does he was special requested to go be part of a team to deal with it... So .... here I am.. dieting.. being calm.... excited to move home in 4 and a half months... fidn out out.. oh byt he way.. your orders are here but congress has not approved the funding.... on top of that... oh by the way.. your husbands 2-3 week deployment to help the japanese has turned into 2-6 months because they can't control the freakin reactor... ok.. I feel really bad.. but *%#$@!$%&&*^& (sorry ) we are supposed to leave in 4.5 months..... On top of that we all get E-mails that say Oh by the way.... The Military may not be getting paid on the 15th of April , possible not on the 1st of may either.... hmm ok... now... We all know what radiation does to sperm.....So... yeah they have suits and meds... and yeah.. he should be safe.. but up until now it has been me that has posed us a problem in getting PG not him, his Sperm is great(awesome and manly if you ask him ) and I guess I just worry that the longer he is there, the more damage could be done.. then again it could be fine.. Now we still have two vials of good unradiated happy frozen sperm but we have never had his frozen before so we don't know how it will thaw .. and if we will need both for 1 try or if we will have two tries.. and I really hope that the DR will be more agressive in treatment this next cycle in June....

Sorry for the vent.. but the stress is just getting to me... all I want is my husband home and my rainbow baby... oh and congress to freakin vote so I can go home haha... So.. I will keep on keepin on , losing weight and getting healthy for my June cycle "OPERATION RAINBOW BABY" !!

[StaceygirlPa]

I am so sorry you going through all of this. I have been thinking of you wondering how you were doing and how your husband was doing.
Congrats on lossing weight. It's not easy to loss weight with so much stress going on.

[Erin84]

UGH, Liz, I am SO SORRY you're going through all this. Fahk. When they were talking about sending my DH I was freaking out because they weren't even having them bring MOPP gear, because "they'd be nowhere near the radiation site." Talk about pissed, stupid higher-ups, yeah RIGHT they'd be that far away! I'm glad your hubby has all the protection and the pills to help with the radiation. SO AGGRAVATING that he's gone indefinitely, and trust me, I know about this whole pay situation... omg, do they just think all the troops live on-base and have no bills? What about the young guys who haven't had time to put money in savings and won't be able to make their cell bill, car note, etc.? Or even couples who HAVE been around a while who won't have enough? When the 1st rolls around and rent is due, *** happens then? This is ABSURD. They're supposed to be giving back-pay even if we don't get paid, so then why the **** don't they just give us the money now if we're going to eventually get it anyway? Dumbest **** I've heard in a very long time. It's VERY hard to believe they're about to do this to not only your everyday military member / family, but to guys like your hubby in Japan, guys in Afghanistan, guys all the **** elsewhere who DON'T DESERVE THIS. But the troops are contractually obligated to work, even without pay, and if they get overpaid on accident, they have to pay it back. I had a girlfriend who was about to get out and when she was putting in her paperwork, they told her, "Oops, you owe us about $10k in separation pay that you were accidentally getting. Weird. Gonna need that back before we can let you go." She'd had an awful experience in the military, so she and her husband (who was stationed in the states while she was stationed in Japan, so she had just assumed all along that the seps pay was appropriate) took out a loan to pay back the 10k so she could get out. Had something similar happen to another friend of mine who was getting overpaid, they found out when he put in his separation paperwork, and he had to stick around and work for little-or-no pay until he worked off the "debt." It's hard to believe how this volunteer military of ours gets treated.

[.:Shortcake:.]

Oh no! I am so sorry your having to deal with all that stress on top of TTC! I hope they everything turns around soon. Congratulations on the weightloss! And I hope that you get your sticky BFP in June

[pepper73]

First off, congratulations on the weight loss! It's great that you've been able to persevere through all that stress.

Second, I am so sorry that you are dealing with all of this. I would also be worried about the radiation and I'm glad your DH is able to take all of the necessary precautions. I really hope you are able to get back to TTC in June & get your rainbow baby!

[Cait&AngelAbove]

I am so sorry that you are having to deal with all of this! Congrats on the weight loss! Military stuff is so messed up sometimes. They can afford to pay all those senators but they talk about not being able to pay the men and women that defend our country!!! Sorry it just makes me mad. My SIL's husband is in the army. They are stationed at Fort Bragg. Is that where y'all are supposed to be going? My husband is retired army. He got hurt and he is now medically discharged. I hope they get everything striaghtened out and get you back to the states as soon as possible.

[okiliz]

Thanks guys :-)
Caitlin: hubby is a Marine so we are going to Jacksonville , not far from bragg at all ... I can't wait to get back.... I mean.. I did like it here but after 3 and a half almost 4 years here it gets kind of old.. and I have to be honest and say that I will feel more secure with american docs looking after me during pregnancy should I get pregnant here and if I don't then I would rather have an american fertility dr I guess... I dunno.. I now it sounds bad but.. the Dr I see here is American but he has lived here for over 20 years.. he is the one who never did an HSG or since my first cycle with him in 2009 never ever did a blood test of any kind... now I did one cycle with his partner who was blood test crazy.. but... he was fat phobic and did an IUI with a lining of 6 and well.. anyway.... argh... Then again... The american doc here did get me pregnant with the twins and no blood work sooooo I guess I can't complain tooo much... and to be fair I was not seeinghim when I lost him.. I was with the Navy drs who refused to do any tests or progesterone when I lost baby B to try and keep baby A... I don't know... Something's gotta give.... Am I making any sense???

[TnPhotoMama81]

I am so sorry you are going through all that stress. I really hate the military sometimes. I think this whole pay/congress thing is ******* stupid. My husband is in the Marine reserves right now and he has been gone this week for drill. I HOPE AND PRAY that they pay him for his drill next week. Otherwise I really do not know what we are going to do. The IRS still owes us our refund from 2 months ago and a govt shutdown could affect our refund as well. I've about had all I can take myself. So yeah I totally know where you are coming from with all that ****. So frustrating.

BTW congrats on the weight loss I am hoping my wellbutrin helps me lose some weight too. I have known a lot of people to lose weight on topamax...kinda wish I could have some of that lol.

Praying that "OPERATION RAINBOW BABY" goes off without a hitch!

Also, my husband was stationed at Camp Lejeune when he was active duty. I assume that is where you guys are going. Luckily I met him as he was getting out from active duty haha I did visit him once while he lived there though.

[*SamF*]

Congrats on the weight loss!!!!

So sorry you are dealing with all the military crap. Wish the senators would just grow up and do their dang jobs.

[j&jmom]

Well first of all CONGRATULATIONS on the weight loss . . . second as a wife to a soldier, I know all about military pay problems. Dh was at least paid, but he was paid wrong (too little) for nearly 6 months. The only upside was that we got a huge check when it was fixed. Another time they didn't pay him back enough for his travel (hotel & airplane) expenses and since he had purchased it on credit card (a government issued credit card) it was a crazy mess to try to get them paid without incurring huge finance charges. I'm so sorry you have to go through all of this. Hopefully you're dh will be home soon!

[j&jmom]

Oh great . . . I didn't know that was a problem with the entire military! Dh just told me he might not get paid too! Argh!!