7th and final miscarriage

pikcstick · #1 April 19th, 2011, 08:36 AM

Hello all- last year, i lost what would have been my third child. he/she was due in march. i was devastated when i lost this baby, it was my fourth miscarriage and when that baby's due date rolled around i sank into a depression until i learned i was expecting again.
today is my first prenatal visit. i got up, went to work, got here and now i am spotting and cramping. i know already that i will be losing this baby, the odds are against me. i have two beautiful sons and i am grateful for them. i do not think it would be a smart decision to try and bring another child into this world after five miscarriages. emotionally, i am all over the place. i am upset, i am numb, i am fine then i am angry. right this second i am pissed that i have to cook and put on a happy face for my whole family this weekend for easter, but i am sure i will get over that. i feel for anyone and everyone who has lost a baby. for the constant speculation of "what's wrong with you that you keep miscarrying?" i don't have an answer for that. i've been tested, they can't find anything and i have two healthy boys that were products of normal unmedically assisted pregnancies. im just emotionally exhausted. and very sad. i had hoped that maybe i would get the girl that my husband so desperately wants.

EJsMommy · #2 April 19th, 2011, 08:51 AM

I am so sorry that you are going through this. Even if I do not know you I am sending you {{Hugs}}

missy123 · #3 April 19th, 2011, 08:58 AM

I am so sorry you are going through this. Did you go to the doctors and be seen anyway just in case? I had 4 losses in 2 years and it was so hard. My loss 2 years ago was right before Easter and my D&C was the day before. I had to cook dinner and try to be happy but I ended up crying half way though it all. Only you can make that decision to stop TTC or not. There is a girl on here that had 10 losses and just had her baby boy last month. It is a very personal journey for you and your husband to decide.

Many hugs, I am so sorry.

JessP · #4 April 19th, 2011, 10:06 AM

I am so sorry you are going through another loss and making the decision to stop. Its a hard decision to make either way. I had two losses and no known reason and DH wanted to stop. I would still go to your appointment.

pepper73 · #5 April 19th, 2011, 11:55 AM

My heart is breaking for you. Going through a loss is so incredibly hard...let alone going through it more than once. I don't blame you for not feeling up to a big Easter dinner with family while you are in so much emotional pain. We are all here for you no matter what you decide to do. And I agree with the others. See what your doctor says and go from there. Sending you tons of hugs!