[Leanne78]

I was part of the Jan DDC - due 1/2, but just had to have a D&C a few weeks ago at 8 weeks (baby stopped growing at 6 weeks). The D&C went well enough. I finally stopped spotting all together a few days ago. My numbers were well over 50,000 when they did the D&C (and still climbing even the day of), so no idea how long it's going to take for those to come down. I'm hoping AF shows herself sooner rather than later. My follow-up appointment with my doctor is Friday, so I'll see how long she wants me to wait. I'm really nervous about trying again, but I want to try as soon as possible. I feel awful for feeling this way, but I'm so jealous of all the mommies who are still a part of the DDC. We were so excited about this baby and it just hurts so bad that it didn't work out. Makes me feel like I'm damaged somehow. I just hope this doesn't happen again. I'm not sure I can take it. I don't know how the ladies who have had multiple MC's keep going.

[EJsMommy]

Hi Leanne, I am so so sorry for your loss. It is a normal feeling to be nervous or scared in trying again so only you would know when you are ready to try again. I have never had a D&C but I delivered my still born baby that stopped growing in the 2nd trimester (about 17-18th week). The ladies here are supportive and knowledgable in various areas. Welcome and I hope you stay is short.

[.:Shortcake:.]

Welcome to TTCAL. I am so very sorry for your loss. The ladies here are so amazing and supportive. As far as your levels they do tend to drop pretty rapidly after a D&C but since your numbers were so high it's hard to say how long they will take to drop. You should O shortly after your number go below 10 and then AF should arrive 14ish days after that. Your cycle might be off for a little while. Please let me know if you have any questions I can help you with.

[lindsey2000k]

Welcome to TTCAL I remember you from Jan DDC.
Glad to hear bleeding has stoppend. Your first A/F should show 4-8 weeks after your D&C. Most of the time your HCG will fall to zero with in 2 weeks of your D&C but some people do take a little longer.
If you have any extra HPT's laying around you could take one to see if you still have any left in your system.

[JessP]

So sorry to hear about your loss. TTCAL is a scary road but luckily this is a great group of ladies to help you get through it. I hope that you are able to try again soon and get a sticky bfp quickly.

[outnumberedX3]

I hope that your numbers drop quickly and you can get back to TTC. I'm sorry, again, for your loss . HUGS!!

[Leanne78]

Thank you so much ladies. I am so sad that you have all had losses too but glad that I have someone to talk to. It seems like everywhere I go there are pregnant women and the pain just starts up all over again. I get teary over anything. I feel like I need a really good cry, but I just haven't had it yet. It's probably going to happen at the worst possible moment. My main way of dealing with this has been focusing all my energy on my daughter. She's turning 1 in a few weeks and planning her party has been all that is keeping me sane. I keep running across her big sister shirts though and last night, I almost pulled her big sister pj's out for bedtime. I need to box that stuff up.

[StaceygirlPa]

I am sorry for you loss. Welcome to the board. The ladies here are wonderful.

[doremi]

Originally Posted by Leanne78

I feel like I need a really good cry, but I just haven't had it yet. It's probably going to happen at the worst possible moment.

I took a bubble bath with a glass of wine and chocolate the day we found out, and cried then, but not super hard. The night I had my really good, hard cry was the night my bleeding stopped. That is when it finally hit me that I had to accept that it was over. I had been feeling like I needed a good cry all day, so when DH and my son were asleep in bed, I just curled up in a ball on the linoleum in the kitchen and sobbed for an hour and a half straight. It was the best thing I could have done... so healing to just let the tears come. I know how it is having a LO who demands so much of your time and energy- Josiah is 2.5, and he needs his mommy to be mommy, not a basket case! So for me, it actually really helped to mentally decide on a time that was going to be "my" time to just be quiet and let the emotions come.