[StaceygirlPa]

I am sorry I have been MIA. Work has been throwing a lot of curve balls at me that has me really stressed. Which was causing me problems at home. I found out that I was bringing the stress home with me and without meaning to I was taking it out on Dh. To help with the stress I talk a walk in the woods up to our other property when I get home since I get home before Dh gets home. I got a new camera and I have been having lots of fun taking pictures with it. I love living on a farm. Where else can you take a walk with 2 dogs, a cow and a horse. Everyone follows me when I go for my walk. The next couple of days I have a lot to think about when it comes to work. Yesterday I was told by one of my bosses that my job should come before my life. That my life dosen't matter. I have worked at my job for 8 years and they aren't willing to work with me on anything. They are demanding that I just change my hours and my life.

To help with the stress I have been doing a lot more of my crafts. I have been crocheting up a storm. I am in the process of opening up my own store on ETSY. I have been crocheting a lot of baby things. Yes, Katie I will start posting a link to my store once I get more items in it which I hope to do that this weekend. Right now I only have one pair of baby booties in my store. On Wednesdays I have been going to Farm Aution with my sister-n-law where people set up booths and sell crafts and used stuff. We have been having fun doing that.

Dh and I got our testing back. My doctor's nurse said everything is normal for me and Dh. Although after reading where Kary responded saying to make sure you get copies of your blood test. I will be going up next week to get a copy of everything. One thing that upsets me is my doctor wont test me for the MTHFR. Since all of our blood test came back ok my doctor is saying its because of my age. Which I am not going to give up. I am taking DHEA everyday to see what happens.

I think the stress I am under at work is causing some of the problems. On Sunday nights I am getting sick and throwing up because I know I have to go to work on Mondays. I can't sleep on Sunday nights. Now I am starting to get sick at work when I try to eat lunch.

Year ago this month Dh and I had our IUI done and we found out we were pregnant. Sadly this would be our first lost. I really didn't think a year later I would have had two more losses. I thought I would be holding our baby in my arms.

I am sorry this turned out to be long. Even though I haven't been posting that much on here I do check in with everyone everyday.

[kaylakay]

I'm sorry you got just a normal result. (or maybe your happy with that?) haha. I recently got my results back and everything came back normal expect insulin which they said isn't that big of a deal.... I was hoping for a more clear answer maybe you were too.... Im sorry about your losses but please don't give up.

[luvmykids623]

Stacey, I'm sorry you're having such a rough time at work. You deserve so much better than the crap they are putting you through. I hope you're able to convince your doctor to run the MTHFR tests, or find one that will. My OB refused to do it, so I had to move on. Turns out I'm positive for 1298A. The fix for that is baby aspirin. My RE thinks that the mutation and the ovulation problem he feels I have (that my OB never thought was a problem) could be the cause of my losses. I can't tell you how angry I get sometimes thinking that a baby aspirin and ovulation help could have prevented this heartbreak. I would hate for the same thing to be the case for you. Please try to find someone that will help you find the answers you need. I'm praying for you!

[.:Shortcake:.]

Stacey I am sorry your having such a rough time at work. Maybe it's time to start looking into other job opportunities. I'm glad your finding ways to relieve your stress but no one should be under that much stress period. Love you Stacey!

[TnPhotoMama81]

I am sorry things are so stressful for you right now I hate when bosses are not understanding.

Please share your etsy store when you can I just reactivated a lot of my listings last week....they had been down for probably 6 months or longer.

[pepper73]

I am so sorry you are dealing with so much crap at work. Your boss sounds like a total jerk and it is so wrong to be treated that way. I say you need to leave that job ASAP! That kind of stress is so dangerous and it seems like it just keeps getting worse. I had a bad job once where the stress was so bad and I was having anxiety attacks. It was horrible. I remember how awful Sundays were. Once I left and got a job that made me happy, I felt so much better both physically and emotionally. I agree with the others too about the testing and I think it's a really good idea to get copies of your bloodwork. I really hope things turn around soon and you can leave your job and get your rainbow baby.

[lindsey2000k]

So sorry you are having a hard time with work.
Your etsy store sounds like lots of fun and great distraction.

[missy123]

If your job is that stressful get a new one. It sounds like even working at a McDonalds would be easier on your emotional well being.

[StaceygirlPa]

Thank you ladies. I hope to get more pictures added into the store this week then I will post the link. Its amzaing how much doing crafts can releave stress.

I have been looking for another job but haven't found one yet. I am going to keep looking though.

[acchickpea]

I would try not to have work stress you out... Hope things get better for you. I've been keeping myself occupied with crafts also!!!!!! I'm halfway there to finishing my baby blankie! I was going to make it for my sister in law (which I feel like she is trumping my life... really... I don't want to bore anyone about what that's supposed to mean but I would be more then happy to complain if you all want) but didn't think that she would appreciate it as much...