[Celena]

My numbers were going up from 350 to just below 600 then only to get another draw that they were going down 279, 289 ? (below 300, I cannot remember the exact number) and when I told them my right side was hurting in my abdomen & back they told me to go to the ER ASAP. Which I was out getting 2 gently used tires for the FLATS we woke up to that friday morning! Awesome huh???

I spent ALL day in the hospital almost 3pm to nearly 11pm... took 3, 4 hours to get into a room! Had bloodwork and ultrasound all done before even getting back there. All this time no pain meds either and the pain kept getting worse... it sucked. Dr came in for a brief moment trying to get a little bit of what was going on and find out my pain level... They eventually got an IV line in and gave me nubain & zofran then came in to talk everything over... I have fluid in my right tube which I googled and it's NOT GOOD. Being 5wks4ds at the time they didn't see a baby in there and even said that they wouldn't see much. But this new dr didn'ty tell me ****! He called my Dr's office and talked to the on call Dr who said they don't "think" it's ectopic, but scheduled me to come in Tuesday since the office isn't open on monday and to keep my appt for Friday with Dr. D as well. Anyways, they sent me off with a script for vicodin and said if anything more happens or if I feel the need to come back in to not hesitate...

I want to get checked out for Endometriosis because there's too many symtpoms that corrolate with what's going on with me and what I feel.... the intense pain during O time, pain during sex, horrible pain during AF and random pain thru the month. Bowel issues, low grade fevers for no reason, and the list goes on. If they decide to do a D&C and while they're in there press them to check for ENDO. Or just beg them to do lap and check for it... the fluid in my tube is not a good sign at all with what I found it another form of a blocked tube, but I just pray it was backed up blood and nothing else. We want our ONE baby together in our family.

I'm rambling and there's so much I want to get out, just haven't been good at complete thoughts at the moment.

DH wants to try until we get our rainbow baby as do I, but he wants to *TRY* again! Might get him fertiliblend for men and maybe get myself some too, idk.

[LindseyE117]

Oh Celena I am so sorry!! You do not deserve this at all! I am so heart broken for you. I cannot even begin to think how painful this is for you.

[Celena]

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and I'm NOT even bleeding!! ***?

[momof6lopez]

Celena, Im just praying so hard for you right now. Emotionally and physically. I pray that the fluid they saw was as you say, and just some left over fluid from ovulating or old blood...I cant even say all the things I want to say to you, as none of it really matters right now to you. Just know your in my heart and thoughts and my dh's as well.

[mmllhh]

Flkhgjdg Celena, this isn't fair....I'm so sorry this is happening...I'm glad that you are going to ask to get checked out.

[fromustobaby]

I'm so sorry

[Celena]

I'm honestly numb, cried a little last night when Dh was talking about Uriah Faber from UFC because I like that name Uriah for a boy... it just hurt.

But I've been pretty non emotional

[melissalaw]

Celena I am so sorry that you are going through this. I hope that you can get some answers from your doctors. Praying for you and your DH.

[lindsey2000k]

This just sucks I am so sorry.

[3Sapphires]

I am so so sorry

[kaylakay]

I am so very sorry.

I hate how unfair life can be.

Your in my thoughts. <3

[Micksbabe]

I am so sorry you don't deserve this

[.:Shortcake:.]

Hugs Celena! I know what you mean about the "non-emotional". I think it's too the point of we have had so many losses we just become numb so that we don't have to deal with the pain. I love you hun and you know I'm here if you want to talk.

[TnPhotoMama81]

Originally Posted by Celena

I'm honestly numb, cried a little last night when Dh was talking about Uriah Faber from UFC because I like that name Uriah for a boy... it just hurt.

But I've been pretty non emotional

Yeah I can totally understand that. I am sure several of us have been there as well. I know I was with our last one. I had time to kind of mentally prepare myself for it. I didn't break down and cry until weeks later.

You're in my thoughts. I am so sorry. It makes me so upset that you don't have your rainbow baby yet

Originally Posted by .:Shortcake:.

Hugs Celena! I know what you mean about the "non-emotional". I think it's too the point of we have had so many losses we just become numb so that we don't have to deal with the pain. I love you hun and you know I'm here if you want to talk.

Exactly

[terajet]

So sorry you are going through this.

[pepper73]

I am so sorry! This is totally unfair and my heart is breaking for me. I really hope your doctor listens to you and checks you out for everything.

[LilHerndon]

So so sorry Celena. I just don't understand why women that have faced so much so far are still getting this kind of **** thrown at them. You're in my thoughts.

[Jessido]

I'm so sorry, its just not fair.

[StaceygirlPa]

I have been thinking of you Celena. There are so many things I want to say. I am so sorry this is happening to you again. I wish you could get a break and have your rainbow baby. We are here for you if you want to talk and know that we all love you.

[doremi]

I am so sorry this is happening. I totally understand feeling numb... I was that way too with my m/c. It wasn't until it was all over that I really dealt with my emotions. Praying for you during this horrible time!