[nala139]

I had so much hope for this month! I don't know why, I guess I just believed what you hear from a lot of people, that you are more fertile after miscarriage. I did acupuncture this whole cycle and we timed everything pretty well. It took me 14 months to conceive the first time and I REALLY don't want to have to wait a long time again. I hate this whole ttc process, I dont want to do it anymore!! I took like 20 cheapie tests this month from like 8dpo up until yesterday and with each bfn I saw I just felt even more hopeless. I know I'm just hormonally emotional right now but I just am so done with all of this, I was even talking to DH about maybe looking into adoption. It is even harder today because I am going to my friend's wedding tonight and everyone has babys and little kids, or they are pregnant. Ahhhhh, why does this have to be SO hard? I need to find a way to focus on something else or I am going to lose it.

[pepper73]

I'm sorry the witch showed and know exactly how you feel. I also had that post m/c hope that I was more fertile and it is so disappointing to keep getting BFN's and AF. I hope that you are able to enjoy yourself at the wedding. Take some time and you will ultimately decide what is the best path for you to take, whether it's continuing with TTC or adoption. Big hugs to you!

[doremi]

AF is due for me on Monday, and BFN's so far for me too. Like you, I am just so sick of TTC... it took 8 months to conceive the last time, and I really don't want that to be the case this time! Try to take it one day at a time. It's a stressful thing to be wanting a baby so badly, and not have it happening as quickly as you would like.

[wishfulgal]

I'm not sure why everyone says that you are more fertile after a m/c (they say the same thing about after giving birth), I know some people do conceive quickly after a m/c, but I don't think that is the norm . It certainly wasn't for me, I actually had 2 really weird cycles after my m/c, one I had a short 9-day LP, the other one I literally O'd on CD 6 and had an 18 day cycle. I hope you will have better luck soon.

[melissalaw]

I am so sorry that you keep getting BFN's. I thought you were more fertile after m/c also. Praying that next month you'll get a BFP.

[.:Shortcake:.]

HUGS I'm sorry hun. I can tell you that finding activities to keep you busy does help.

[luvmykids623]

I'm so sorry the witch showed. Getting your hopes up only to have them be crushed by a bfn is terrible! I hope that this next cycle is it for you!

[cheeky_monkey]

Megann I can totally feel you. This past cycle I had so much high hopes for it working. As soon as the witch showed its ugly face yesterday I simply burst out crying like a baby

I did around 22 tests in all coz I simply did not want to give up. Today it is still hard to accept that I'm not pregnant and to make it worse next month should have been my due date and I'm not even going to be pregnant at least

[lindsey2000k]

I am so sorry.
I am a wedding photographer and photographed a wedding yesterday and 2 of the bridesmaids were pregnant and it was ALL they were talking about and then another bridesmaid had her new born with her.
It was really hard to stay professional and not break down and just totally lose it with all the baby & Pregnancy talk.

[nala139]

I just have to say weddings are worst because there are so many kids and pregnant people. I just have to somehow keep some hope that someday it will be my turn. I hope we all get our rainbow babies soon, the wait is just so hard.

[lindsey2000k]

Originally Posted by nala139

I just have to say weddings are worst because there are so many kids and pregnant people. I just have to somehow keep some hope that someday it will be my turn. I hope we all get our rainbow babies soon, the wait is just so hard.

Yes weddings are hard. Maternity & New born shoots are even worse right now so I just dont even book those.
Yesterday was really hard because I was unable to walk away to collect my thoughts. I had to be stuck in this room for 2 hours while all these preggos rub each others bellys and tlk about "Oh do I look like a fat whale in this dress".

I think the worse for me was a friend of a friend booked me to shoot her wedding and she booked me around the same time I had my loss last fall and she even knew what I was going through. Well a month after she booked me she sent me a Email saying she is canceling her wedding because she just found out she was pregnant and doesnt want to be fat on her wedding day.
UGH that was a stab in the heart. I think found a better way of telling me than that.

[outnumberedX3]

I'm sorry hon . I got my hopes up my last cycle (the cycle right after the m/c) and it ended with AF showing 3 days late and 5 BFN's. I hate TTC also. The whole process is so draining!!! HUGS hon!! I hope that you get pregnant soon.