I am out for the month.

I am 12 DPO according to FF and got a neg p-test and have zero pregnancy symptoms. This is the 2nd month that we haven't tried 100% but definitely didnt prevent pregnancy and I'm frankly a little shocked that I'm not pregnant. It was SO easy last time, I guess I thought this time would be easy too.
It's really hard for me too because Liam was due this month and I thought it would be sweet to "connect" our babies by being pregnant the same month Liam was due. I guess that's not gonna happen now. The rest of July is going to be really, really hard with nothing to look forward too. Here's hoping August will be the month and we'll have a May baby.