New here(m/c mentioned)

ttcivfma · #1 July 12th, 2011, 05:53 AM

Hello ladies,
My name is Stephanie. My DBF and I have been trying for two years to get preggo. We got a BFP after our first round of IVF but my levels were not up to par. They went from 119 to 220 in four days then down to 109. This all happened last week and now I am waiting for more blood work on the 14th. Due to the progesterone I think I have yet to really m/c. I think it was etopic. I just want this to be over. I want to start bleeding so that I can not feel like I have hope when I dont. It is heart breaking and seems like it is lingering forever. The RE said it could happen. I will change my ticker once I start bleeding but I cant bring myself to do it right now. DBF and I are deciding if we are going to try natural again or just injectables. I dont O a lot so that is the problem with natural. This is my third loss. It is just so heart breaking.

*SamF* · #2 July 12th, 2011, 06:06 AM

Stephanie- I'm so sorry for your loss. Welcome to the board, the ladies here are awesome!

Cait&AngelAbove · #3 July 12th, 2011, 06:08 AM

Welcome to the board! I am so incredibly sorry for your loss! We are here for you!

melissalaw · #4 July 12th, 2011, 07:18 AM

Stephanie I am so sorry for your loss and for what you are going through. I felt the same way once I learned that I had m/c. I just wanted it to be over. Just know that we are hear for you to listen and for support. Again I'm so sorry.

acchickpea · #5 July 12th, 2011, 07:27 AM

I'm so sorry... It's such a hard thing to deal with but we are here for you.

.:Shortcake:. · #6 July 12th, 2011, 07:31 AM

((HUGS)) I am so very sorry for your loss! The ladies here are so amazing and I hope you find the support you need.

lindsey2000k · #7 July 12th, 2011, 07:33 AM

I am so sorry.
I hope its not an ectopic. Are they planning on monitoring you close to make sure it is not?

ttcivfma · #8 July 13th, 2011, 05:37 AM

I go for more bloodwork tomorrow. If my number hasnt gone down I am going to ask to be seen for a u/s. My numbers were too low before but I need to know if it is etopic. I am leaving on vacation Friday so I need to know tomorrow so if I need the shot to m/c then I can get it tomorrow. I just want to get back out of this limbo. My DBF said maybe it a miracle baby but I just cant find it to be. Too much like the cramping and gaining a pound a day just isnt normal and this not bleeding is really scaring me. I just am ready to get back to TTC and seeing what happens. Thanks so much ladies. I am glad to talk with others that understand the feeling of loss.

lindsey2000k · #9 July 13th, 2011, 06:24 AM

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Originally Posted by ttcivfma

I go for more bloodwork tomorrow. If my number hasnt gone down I am going to ask to be seen for a u/s. My numbers were too low before but I need to know if it is etopic. I am leaving on vacation Friday so I need to know tomorrow so if I need the shot to m/c then I can get it tomorrow. I just want to get back out of this limbo. My DBF said maybe it a miracle baby but I just cant find it to be. Too much like the cramping and gaining a pound a day just isnt normal and this not bleeding is really scaring me. I just am ready to get back to TTC and seeing what happens. Thanks so much ladies. I am glad to talk with others that understand the feeling of loss.

I just had an ectopic in May. My HCG levels were rising the whole time and were rising 30-49 hours with each draw. But my progestrone was super low. I was spotting the whole time and they put me on progestrone and I was on blood thinners so they said my spotting was probably from all that. But it got heavier by the day and by about 10 days after I got my BFP it was bright red and from the pain I was in I just knew it was ectopic.
I also had zero pregnancy symptoms like I typicially would have. The scary part was I had no clue how far along I was supposed to be because I did not wait for my period after my loss the month before and OPKS and temps were all over the place.
Just pay attention to your body and if pain starts get in asap to try and save your tube. This pain will be more than just the typical pregnancy crampy/bloated feeling you get. It started off feeling like I was getting a really bad bladder infection and the next morning I was doubled over and could not walk with out tears.

outnumberedX3 · #10 July 13th, 2011, 07:26 AM

I'm SO sorry for your loss. Sending you tons if T+P's. HUGS hon.

LindseyE117 · #11 July 13th, 2011, 05:39 PM

Stephanie I had been wondering about you!! No no no!!

The ladies in here are great. They have dealt with me for the last 10 months. Still, this is not fair for you!

luvmykids623 · #12 July 14th, 2011, 05:50 AM

I am so sorry you're going through this again. I hope that things get moving for you soon so you can at least move passed that part. The ladies here are amazing! I hope you're able to find some comfort here.

pepper73 · #13 July 14th, 2011, 08:44 AM

I am so sorry for your losses! I hope you get out of limbo soon!

ttcivfma · #14 July 14th, 2011, 10:15 AM

My levels went up to 188. So the RE thinks it is etopic. Not sure where it is as it did not look like it was my tubes but I had to cancel my trip. I was going on vacation to Puerto Rico with DBF. I go for more bloodwork and then I get a shot to miscarry and then they are going to monitor my levels at 4 days after the shot and 7 days. My RE said my tube could rupture mid flight and also I cant go out in the sun after the shot anyway. But at least they are doing something about it and monitoring me super close.