Nayomi80 you should really give this a go. It's not an expensive book nor is it long (I read it in a day at work).
ldovey83 it did the same for me. I was also angry and mad at God but when I read the book and started reading my bible more, I believe that God loves me so much he wanted to test my faith and take my angel baby. I've read in the Bible it is a blessing to be tested by God because it shows He loves you enough to really test your faith. I know some people would see that as a bad thing but ever since He took my angel I've been closer to God then ever before.

He wanted me closer to Him and unfortunately sometimes it takes extreme measures. This is only my experience and I'm not saying that for all the babies who went to heaven are being used to test your faith in God. Sorry for the ramble!