[Jen71]

(I think this is only the 2nd or 3rd thread I've started on TTCAL, but I've been replying and lurking as much as time and my psyche will allow)

I just have to say, I think I can handle this 2ww with less stress this month. I feel at relative peace with either outcome. Usually I'm stressed and obsessive about symptoms. I'm still a POAS addict, and have tested at 8dpo and 9dpo with IC strips. I got a horrible Evap line yesterday, darn it. Today's (9dpo) was clearly negative. Anyhow , despite my addiction to peeing on things, I really feel more peaceful. I realize that at my age, if it's meant to be, it will be, and if it's not, it's not. (Well, this is how I feel today... I'll let you know if I feel differently in a week if af comes. ).

Meanwhile, I have very sore bbs, a little nausea, spells of exhaustion, and I'm crying at everything, but all of those go along with being mom to two young boys too, so who knows.

Of course, I'd love to be pregnant with a healthy sticky bean more than anything, but I also want to maintain my sanity.

With the news of seashellmom4, and a friend of mine who just lost her daughter at full term, her uterus (no hope of a bio rainbow baby), and almost her life due to an infection (she didn't even get to see or hold her baby, as she was unconscious and sedated in ICU for 2 weeks) , I'm feeling pretty blessed already.

Thanks for reading!!

[.:Shortcake:.]

I'm glad your feeling at peace. Sometimes we need to take a step back and realize that we might not have it all but we have some pretty good things to be thankful for. I'm so very sorry to hear about your friends.

[AMiner86]

Sorry to hear about your friend, but glad to hear that you're finding peace.

I'm also fighting my urge to pee on things on a daily basis, I hate the waiting game. You're definitely not alone.

[BeckyBozeman]

Originally Posted by Jen71

With the news of seashellmom4, and a friend of mine who just lost her daughter at full term, her uterus (no hope of a bio rainbow baby), and almost her life due an infection, I'm feeling pretty blessed already.

This exactly... And what happened in Norway yesterday. And so many other things have really helped me keep some perspective and not feel too sorry for myself.

[pepper73]

I'm really glad you have found that peace. It is important to try and find that in the midst of everything we go through while TTCAL.

My sincere thoughts & prayers go out to your friend. What a heartbreaking thing to go through and you're right, it definitely puts things into perspective.

[nala139]

That is such a heartbreaking story about your friend. I have really tried to focus on how blessed I am too. It is really hard not to stress and feel sorry for myself sometimes but I really do have a great life, even without kids. I hope you get good news at the end of this tww.

[lindsey2000k]

I like your positive outlook right now

[JessP]

Sorry about your friend .

I am glad you are finding peace in your life. I found that about a year after my second loss. I also found out I was pregnant about a month after I found that peace . So who knows maybe its a good sign of good things to come.

[melissalaw]

I am so sorry about your friend. So glad that you have found peace. The 2WW is always a hard time. The waiting is hard, so glad that you have found peace.