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this is my original post from early july....wanted to re post because i have been lurking since then....

Hi girls, I hate that this board even exists but here I am. I'm Meg and LONG story short DH and I have been married 2 years this August and have been ttc. We saw an RE who directed us to IVF because my tubes and my ovaries are not near each other due to endo so it is highly unlikely I will be able to conceive on my own. We did our first IVF in March and it was unsuccessful. We did our FET in May and BOOM BFP -- but betas did not double correctly...u/s showed sac not growing and I was also having left sided pain and since we but back 2 embryos (although we saw nothing in my tube) I was cautioned for an ectopic and so they treated it as one although it was never confirmed. I finally just got my first AF after m/c and will be jumping on the wagon to do another FET this September. Just wanted to introduce myself and see if I can join you ladies.

I currently go to the doc tomorrow to get back on b/c for my next IVF cycle -- in the mean time I'm getting my booty back into shape to prepare for my next attempt

***today***so i never got on the BCP last cycle becuase they didnt want to do 2 months of suppression before the FET. last AF was july 8th so i'm waiting for her to hurry up and get here to go in for the u/s and blood work and get on b/c. tomorrow july 29 is 2 months from when my scheduled transfer is (sept 29) IVF is about a 2 month process so now that im getting close i'm starting to get anxious/nervous.



side note i have a rant about my day: **horrible day**

and horrible is an understatement. when i had my m/c i confided in a dr i work with. turns out she had a m/c too. i truly felt good after talking to her and she asked how i was for weeks afterwards, if my betas were going down, what my next step was, etc. when we talked she said if it happens it happens if it doesnt it doesnt. she is 40 and has 2 boys youngest is 5. well i have been suspecting she is pregnant the last few weeks and today she announces she is 15 weeks! and due mid january, i was due the end of january. my heart could not have sunk lower. now i'm going to have to watch her grow the next few months knowing that i would be a week behind her. talk about heartbreaking. i dont know how i didnt cry at the office but i kept it in until i got to my car. she was pregnant when i told her what was going on with me. and she was pregnant every week she was asking how i was. i would have atleast appreciated her pulling me aside to tell me the news considering we were due at the same time. i just dont get how she can have a healthy pregnancy and i cannot. i just dont even know what to say...today was horrible. do you guys think i am over reacting?

[LilHerndon]

So sorry to hear of your loss.

I have high hopes for you on this next FET cycle, and my fingers will be crossed for sure.

As for the lady at work, she should've told you she was pregnant when you were confiding in her, or at least gave you a heads up or something. Some people don't understand that it hurts to be around someone pregnant after a loss, so maybe she didn't think about it. And I don't think you are overreacting at all, you are allowed to feel all of those emotions for as long as you want, especially with all you've gone through. Good luck on your next cycle hun, and I hope you feel better.

[fromustobaby]

She was probably keeping it from you to keep from hurting you further...
I would agree that it would have been better to pull you aside to tell you, but I do understand why she hid it...
I hope that time flies by and that you get your miracle baby soon

[doremi]

I'm so sorry. I would have expected that she would confide in you earlier so that you wouldn't feel blindsided by her pregnancy. Even before my m/c, that is what I would have done if I was in a situation like that. I hope that you get your sweet baby soon. Hang in there!

[.:Shortcake:.]

((HUGS)) She probably felt like she would hurt you more by telling you right when your grieving your loss not knowing it would hurt for you now. Your not overreacting. It's hard when we are watching someone else have what we want.

[StaceygirlPa]

Originally Posted by .:Shortcake:.

((HUGS)) She probably felt like she would hurt you more by telling you right when your grieving your loss not knowing it would hurt for you now. Your not overreacting. It's hard when we are watching someone else have what we want.

[pepper73]

You are not over reacting at all, but I do agree that her intentions were most likely in the right place and she was trying to avoid causing you more pain. It's hard to know how to act in a situation like that. No matter what, that news is devastating for someone who has had a loss. It will hurt either way. I have a feeling she was wrestling with figuring out whether or not to tell you. It's just a crappy situation all around and I'm sorry you are dealing with that.

Best of luck to you these next 2 months. I wish you tons of success at the end of September. Please keep us posted.

[luvmykids623]

I'm so sorry you're going through this. I agree with Katie that she probably thought she would hurt you more by telling you. You are not overreacting at all. It is so hard to watch others grow while you are left with an empty womb and a heart full of hurt. This past school year I had 3 coworkers that I see multiple times a day were pregnant and due the same time as me. One was due 2 days before me, one was due 2 days after me, and one was due 2 weeks after me. It was pure hell watching them grow and knowing that not only was my baby gone, but we were struggling to conceive. You are most definitely NOT overreacting.

[lindsey2000k]

Im sorry It has been so hard on me to watch all the people pregnant and due when I was. I hurt to watch the bellys grow or the babys born when I should be joining them.

I am glad you joined us over here.

[*SamF*]

Just going to the others. on your co-workers intentions being in the right place.
Hugs though it's so hard hearing about others pregnancies. Sometimes it helps knowing that they had to struggle to, and since she confided that she had had a m/c, you can look at her as maybe an inspiration, she did you can too.
Hope your 2 month process goes quickly for you and you get your sticky BFP!

[nala139]

You are not overreacting, this happened to me at work and I had to go to the bathroom so I could cry in private. It is so hard to hear when others are expecting, especially when it is around your due date.