[kaylakay]

So... This is going to sound so weird but I'm so scared that I'll never have a child... I mean I know loss is hard no matter what even if you do already have kids and what not... But the women with multliple losses (or just one) but have carried a child to term know their body can do it because they've done it before... They have that little extra hope.


I have no kids. Just losses. What if I never get my rainbow baby? What if my body CAN'T hold a pregnancy?

:/

[luvmykids623]

I remember that feeling very well after my first loss. It's so disheartening. I'm so sorry you're going through this!

[nala139]

I worry about it all the time. It took us so long to become pregnant in the first place at first I thought I just couldn't get pregnant and then when I finally did I lost it. I have lots of very sad days. Two of my very good friends are pregnant and it is a constant reminder. I do have ok days though when I really feel like we will have a baby so I try to hold onto that hope. I am so sorry because I know you have had multiple losses and the one I have had was so painful I cannot imagine going through it more than once. I hope you get your rainbow baby very soon ((hugs)).

[.:Shortcake:.]

Kayla I worry about that often but you know what pulls me through... No matter what even if my body fails me DH and I will figure out a way. There is always adoption and surrogate moms. Never give up hope that you will be a mom, it may not be the way you want it to be but once that baby is in your arms all else with not matter as to how it got there

[Blue_fire]

Yup, I worry about that too. Ive only had losses too, and at 37 I just don't know if my body can do it. I've always considered myself a strong person....but these losses bring me to my knees. I've never let anything effect me the way ttc has.

[-hopeful-]

that thought crosses my mind on almost a daily basis. i know that my body can get pregnant which did give me some reassurance but i dont know if it will carry a baby to term. i know there are other options but i really want to experience pregnancy.

[pepper73]

I absolutely have those days and it is terrifying! It's such an unknown and we put so much effort into it. I have faith, though, that we will all be getting our rainbow babies soon. If ever there was a time in our lives to think positively, this is it.

[ttcivfma]

I feel that way all the time. It is scary to think that I may never be able to carry my own baby. I can get pregnant and that is hard but I cant seem to carry it. I hate it. This is my third loss and all I want to do is cry. I just want to be a mom.

[cheeky_monkey]

I'm in the same boat with you!! In three weeks time I would have become a mum for the first time and I am freakingout at the thought that I might never come to hold a baby in my arms and say this is my little one. It breaks my heart to hear ppl say that they're pregnant or that they have just had a baby.

I have no idea whether my body can manage to keep a pregnancy. Only thing that keeps me going is that I stick my head in the sand and 'ignore' that feeling as much as I can, otherwise i'll end up in the nut house for sure

[StaceygirlPa]

Your thought has always crossed my mind. Dh and I picked out names for a girl and boy when we were first pg last year. It breaks my heart when I think that we might never be able to use those names. I keep pushing forward because I want to be a mom and I want to make Dh a dad.

[acchickpea]

I do have those feelings sometimes... but I always try to think on the up side to not depress me....

[BeckyBozeman]

Yup... totally right there with you... and after one pregnancy and one loss at 36, I also wonder if I messed up and waited too long and now will never have the chance to carry a baby to term. Everyone tells me how likely it is that my next pregnancy will be healthy and normal. And, while I appreciate the thought, what's going through my mind is "what if it isn't? What if it can't be because there's something wrong with me."

It's really hard to push away those negative thoughts.... hugs.